exam!!

oh dear ema, 

face it!

you have exam in two days...

well, kiranya ada lebih 24 hours je lagi...

study girl..

don't give up!!!

i love you!

and i know you can do it!!

P/S: please pray for me!!

my personality quiz

Okie dokie. i followed the advice of The Rocking Hijab and she told me to take the personality quiz which is judged by a professional. it took about 10 minutes of my time, maybe less. and here are the results!

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand. (maybe true...coz salam turned to me! haha...my roomates also turn to me for a helping hand.)

You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it. (so ME! taht's why i'm complicated! haha...)

You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things. (>____<)

Friendly

You would rather hang out with others than spend time alone, and you'd far rather be doing something with your friends than just sitting around. You're happy in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium. (the crowded part i'm not sure. i don't like people squeezing against one another in a concert. me no likey! but i like hanging out with people, doesn't matter if they are my frends, family members or just plain strangers.)

You're not a private person who is ill at ease in a group; you don't view excessive socializing as a waste of time. (socializing means you get to meet new friends. is that wasting time??)

Accessible

You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music. (i certainly have a lot of friends-to the level that i got the title Miss Scandal in college. haha...i have a strong character, which implies that i only consider my thoughts in the way i think, express my feeling & even the way i dress. if you have a problem with it, then that's yours!)

You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.

Poised

You tend to feel at home wherever you find yourself, even in unfamiliar settings, with new people. It takes a lot to rattle you, and when rattled you recover quickly and gracefully.

You are usually not self-conscious or nervous when you're in an unfamiliar environment or with people you don't know. (this one i'm not so sure! i am a very nervous person. i get nervous easily. but i quickly feel okay when i have a situation under control.)

Optimistic

You are a "glass half-full" kind of person, always on the lookout for the silver lining. Your happiness is contagious, which is why others like to be around you. (hahaha....contagious??)

You do not feel that the world is an intrinsically depressing place; you are not the kind of "realist" who thinks that only fools find joy in life.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel. (i appreciate beautiful songs, art & clothes...are those included? hahaha)

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Assertive

You behave in a confident and forceful manner, take charge of the situation, raise your hand in class, stand up for what you think is right, and lead others. Among those who have a high score on the "assertive" trait, many have jobs in which they are valued for their organizational skills as well as their talent for supervising others. (tell me about it!)

You are not interested in fading into the woodwork, leaving everything to fate, taking more time than necessary to accomplish a task, or avoiding confrontation.

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place. (natural host? teringat kisah ERIC during my high school years. so much for a NATURAL HOST, i was called ERICA for a whole month!)

You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism. (this is the main reason why i kept everything to myself, however, some people just like spitting it out in our faces right?)

Empathetic

You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others. (hmm...does this feeling help me in becoming a dentist + doctor (insyaAllah) in the future? dah la doctors are not supposed to be engaged in the patient's feelings. macam mana nie??)

You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy. (i'm the sunshine! wehee...)

a song for me

As strong as you were, tender you go.
I'm watching you breathing for the last time.
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet,
I know what it means and I'll carry you home.
I'll carry you home

i am the strength of myself

i am the lover of myself

i am the one who cuddles myself to sleep

i am the one who sing to myself songs that make me feel better

i am the one who hangs out with myself

i am the one who whisper love to myself

i am the one who follows myself around

i am the one who stroke myself's hair

i am the one who listen to myself

i am the one who hugs myself when i cry

i am the one who wipe myself's tears

i am the one who talks myself down

sometimes you wish you had a boyfriend, but you forget,

the boyfriend to yourself is you!

before i forget...

dear Ema, 

I LOVE YOU!

i will stand by you when nobody's with you

i will have your hands in mine all the way

i will be there whenever you need me

you don't have to call or text,

i'm here...

complicated

susahnya bila kita bercouple. ingatkn bila dah couple, dh confirm la akn terus stay smpai kahwin...
but then tgh2 couple tue, thunderstorm plak yg jadi, then break-up...
then bila org lain nk masuk pun dah x leh sbb ckp, 'im still not over it'
pastu, kesian org yg berkenaan tue...
terpaksa layan perasaan sendiri...
smpai down...

P/S: sapa suh gatai nk couple?? sapa suh ngorat?? haha

movie mania..

wehee!! so, i watched two movies so far!! Abduction & Confessions Of A Shopaholic! Haaha...
i know i'm facing my exams next week. 5 days more!! CRAP!! but then, once in a while, you just gotta reward yourself after a good work in studying!!
as im a VERY GOOD movie critic, i would like t comment a little or two n both movies. just a short one..

1) Abduction

some part of the movie

acted by Taylor Lautner & Lily Collins. this movie is super superb, not because Taylor's in it, but yeah, it is! the stunts were most crazy & got me screaming, squeaking & chuckling  LOUDLY! plus, i was boxing in the air. funny huh? it was a fun movie, with lots of thrills here & there. the rest of the movie was just how Taylor dragged Lily everywhere, how he survived himself from day to day. but the movie plot was only a few days, about 3 days & 2 nights. just a short one, but it's crazy thinking how people can track you down in a split second. you should watch the movie if you wanna know about it! haha...plus, most of the stunts were really performed by him, and the coolest part is when he sits in front of the car at 110 km/h, screaming 'faster dude!' & him sliding down the glass window of the stadium all by himself, but then he hurt his ankle, something we used to learn in Physics, to reduce tension.

2) Confession of a Shopaholic

A cute scene

acted by Isle Fisher & Hugh Dancy. i know this is an old movie, but i missed this movie completely. i read the book anyhow. so, when i watched the movie, i preferred the novel. most of the scenes from the novel was wiped off in the movie and some scenes from the movie are not n the novel. i really loved the scene where she would fight with the customer for the pair of pants (novel) but it was not shown in the movie. anyhow, the movie was cute & hilarious.
The Girl in The Green Scarf-sweet!

my 1st usrahh

so, alhamdulillah, i had the courage to attend my 1st usrah (x jauh pun, surau tingkat 3) gara2 memikirkan sama ada ema layak atau x, will i be able to accept apa yg diberitahu, will they force me to do something i dont wish for was haunting me these few months. but after what i see & experience for 1 hour, showed a positive feedback from my heart.
things were easier for me to absorb, i dont feel burdened...just felt a smack to the face, (well, a few times actually!!) realizing i'm doing all  the wrong things all along that will bring me farther and farther apart from The Almighty. but insya-Allah, we change slowly. at our own pace. but keep doing the right thing from time to time, improve a little a day, and you'll see how it affects you, throughout ur life.
wallahu a'lam...

kisah cintaku

wahh, ema ada kisah cinta!! pewitt!! tapi kisah cinta ema ni pelik sikit. alkisahnya mcm nie..(hehehe...mcm cerita hikayat la plak...Hikayat Ema DAn Dia)

kisah cinta yang bermula tanpa pertemuan, tanpa perlu bersemuka...hanya pada tulisan & love letter nya yang panjang lebar (hmpir satu muka A4) pada ema...sudah cukup, untuk buatkan ema menggelarnya pakwe ema sendiri...
sejak hari tu, kehadirannya ke kuliah sgt2 dinantikan. kalau sebelum ni x penah nk acknowledge dia, skrg nie eager nk masuk kelas, nk tgok muka dia, nk dengar apa yg dia ckp, nk gelak to all his jokes...

sadly, kisah cinta ini akn berakhir besok, sbb ema xkn jumpa dia lagi lps nie. impossible for us to ever meet again. (lagu 'if we ever meet again' by BEP bemain di kepala otak ema scara automatik skrg) ema xkn dengar suara dia, xkn boleh gelak to his silly jokes....
however, i received a shorter love letter today. just a brief one (x smpai 1/2 an A4). =(
 it's okay. i'll take it. i'll keep it. i might get some inspirations from them. My LOVE LETTERS.
but, u'll always be pakwe ema.

trust

this is a movie i just watched just a while ago. i just can't accept the fact that lots of teens & people, especially girls who gets fulled by guys, older than them. oh, please!! you chat with lots of UNKNOWN people on the net, in the cyber world. its the cyber world for God's sake. come on man! nothing is true, especially when it comes to people you don't know.

just becoz he puts a very handsome & cute picture, you fall for him? you meet him without your parents knowing a thing about it. you enter his motel or hotel room, talk for a lil bit & then stuff happened. then, ur parents freak out, and you can still say you love him? come on!!

 get it that Americans say that an action is called 'rape' if a guy older than a girl have a sexual relationship, even if the girl is willing to do so! stupid law right? well actually by the age of 15-16 a girl is capable of thinking what's right and wrong. they just make stupid decisions. but still, you can never blame the guy only. coz in my opinion, i think the girl is making a wrong decision as well.

in your normal state of mind, do you just follow a guy you barely know by just talking on the phone & chat online for two months? into a motel? come on! by this stage, you should already know this is not a right move.
but as much as i hate it, stuff like this happen. girls don't appreciate themselves much. so when other people, especially from the opposite sex praise them, they fall for them. they think they're old enough to keep things away from their parents. well well well....what more can i say?

i just think, sometime's girls gotta take the blame as well, not just the paedophiles. its one thing that the paedophiles are just maniac, for hunting girls under age, but the girls gotta take blame as well..are you outta ur mind to trust a guy outta nowhere? get what i mean??

kahwin secara paksa??

well well, skrg nie kan byk sgt cerita whether dkt novel or in the movies & dramas yg mengisahkan cinta antara dua pihak yang kemudiannya terhalang oleh mak bapak, and then kena kahwin paksa ngan org lain. but the trend of marriage once upon a time is ikut tempoh, like lps 3 bulan, kena cerai...blah blah blah...

the point is, i don't get this one drama...(where a lot of people liked it & watched t...EXCEPT me! they would rush to the TV room just to watch the drama) okay, just cut the crap out & say what you wanna say!!
orite orite..so, i watched this movie on TV just a while ago, 'Emily'. maybe you guys have watched this movie before. this story goes like this, two people got married becoz of the girl's brother's wish. the girl agreed to get married for only 6 months. though they both dislike one another, eventually, they did fall in love. becoz of commitment living under the same roof, someday someone will fall a sick, someone will try to help out, someone will start a fight, someone will say sorry...these will spark love life...logic right?

however, watching this drama, which was so POPULAR, though i didn't like the actress & the little girl (somehow now i like the little girl, but still not the actress) the two of them got married for the sake of their parents, some kind of arranged marriage. they already got a child, but still the wife is not happy & still do not have any feelings for her husband. how is that possible? i mean, logically thinking, teh wife must have gone through morning sickness and all, of course the husband would be there, helping her out, getting her every craving she had during pregnancy, right? takkanlah x RASA yg husband tu caring? come on laa..

plus, the wife ada boyfriend kat luar! x rasa bersalah ka? x rasa mcm curang ka? haizz...tensionnya..ema baru tgok satu episod pun dah naik berang, imagine kalau i watch the whole drama? oh, man!! sometimes, people nk create a very DRAMATIC drama, problemnya, cuba logic skit!!

raya haji 2011

well, this raya haji ada good & bad sides...

1stly, ema drive my dad;s car, dengan selamatnya...weheee!!!! then, the part where i sent the daging was also fun2...

right after that, drama begins!!! wohoo?? hmm, i dont think so...it just started & before you knew it, it was all said & done, hearts were broken & crushed, tears were welling up, ignorance plus heartache! 

but the best part is silence! where both parties just ignore one another, till the next day...and we won't be meeting each other till the next raya. wallah!! 

sembahyang secara berjemaah Maghrib & Isyak ngan the EXTENDED family...baca Yaasin together gether...

sembang2 ngan aunties yg sblm ni x enah nk ckp, jumpa ngan uncles yg sblm nie x penah nmpk batang hidung pun...

terima pujian sbb senyman yg manis & personality yg TERLEBEH bubby, sbb pakai sepit rambut YELLOW!

hahahhaa....had an enjoyable day!!

confused

petang tadi, i came across my matriks neighbour. she was a funny person and used to sleep in our room during the exams. she was walking side by side with a guy, and i was pretty shocked. in my heart, i knew this guy is more than just a friend. but i pretended i didn't know, greeted her as usual and asked her who that guy is.
at first she denied, but towards the end, she told me that guy is her boyfriend. i kindda squealed right there & then when she confessed.
as soon as she left me, and i walked back to my room, i wondered to myself.
is this right? should i be feeling happy for her? or should i be feeling sorry for her?
i was in a dilemma. i know she knew this is wrong. but what can i really do?
she's my friend, and she has gone that far. all i can do is pray that this guy would keep her safe & happy, would not do any harm to her. will not have any wrong intentions towards her.
i'm still in a dilemma...
i did after all, matched two of my friends, and now they're a couple. i can't undo my actions. everything's said & done. all i can do now is seek for His forgiveness. and pray that i will not be anything like them.
i sometimes wish to not fall in love. i want my dad to match make me with a guy he think is best for me. id on't know nothing now. *feel like bursting into tears*

sabar wahai hati..

nothing you can do but sabar wahai hati..
semua ni dugaan daripada Allah...
whether He's testing you because He loves you,
or because He's paying you back for all the wrongdoings you've done before...
oleh itu, sabarlah wahai hati...
ema rasa all of these happen for a reason..
maybe you're being tested for a reason..
maybe to make you stronger,
or to prepare yourself for a more tensed situation...

so, i have one advice for you, dear...
leave them behind...
take you, yourself only to the front...
i believe you did what's best for them,
but if they don't appreciate them, just leave..
He knows everything...
let Him only know what happened...
complain to Him dear heart...
talk to Him dear heart...
pray to Him dear heart...
at the same time,
try to hold back your anger,
hold back everything you feel like spurting out...
hold back, hold back...

carving...

carving is a process where you carve a block of wax into the shape of the teeth desired. so, i've been carving this block of wax for weeks now, but all i end with is frustration & failure. i'm not ashamed to admit that this is my 3rd trial to carve the incisor teeth, which is also known as the rabbit teeth or even the front teeth. the first time i carved, it turned out a lil bit tiny, so at the end of the first carving class, i asked for another block of wax, hoping that i would do better...but then, my second try looked OK at the beginning, but then towards the end, it became an anorexic teeth. no joke..it looked more like a sheep's incisor. i was about to cry when the technician in the prostho lab told me that i need to start all over again with a new block of wax.
i remembered asking him, 'could my teeth be saved?'
and one of the technicians there told me this, 'try sending your teeth to the ER. if it could be save, then  it will be alive'
so here i am, with a new block of wax. i began carving since last week. i measured this tooth to be slightly bigger & larger, so that if there's any mistakes, it could still be adjusted. hehe..so pray for me...hopefully i would be done with it by tomorrow evening...aminn...