dreams and ema

Assalamualaikum, readers.
first of all Happy National Day Malaysia!! it's the 56th birthday for Malaysia.
next up, I apologize for not updating on my blog. i seem to have run out of ideas. or perhaps, i don't feel like whining and complaining about life. some things that annoy me happens almost every day that i somehow was able to cope with whatever.
Anyhow...
back to main story laa...
these past few weeks, i have been dreaming about things that i can't explain. actually i can explain, because the dreams were rather straight-forward. but i only get part and pieces of them that the main question, who is the dream directed to remains a mystery.
i talked to my mum about this, but she was too afraid to reply anything. so, she referred my dream to my dad. well, he's not really an expert, but sometimes the both of us get a vision of some events that becomes true in the future.
wait up a minute, what was the dream??
*inhales deeply* 
i dreamt of me being somewhere close to a bride *i assume* she had her hands spread out with mehendi. the mehendi was bright and red, it looked beautiful. and we were discussing whether to put some mehendi on both sides of the hand. i was definitely excited because even in my sleep, i heard myself laughing. 
the moment i woke up, the question, 'who's the bride?' remained a mystery, was it me, my sister? or was it someone else?
well, in my family, the only single girls waiting in line to get married is my cousin sister who's somewhere between 27-29, my sister who's 26 and me, 21. 
my dad remained cool about this and just guessed between the three of us, the bride in my dream is either my cousin-sister or my sister.
yesterday, i got a news from my sister, who said that my cousin-sister is going to get married. Alhamdulillah...may Allah ease everything...
the second one is i dreamt of my sister's lecturer approved her thesis. she's been struggling for two years now to complete her thesis. and every time she sends them in, the thesis were returned back to her.
in my dream, i checked her e-mail and her lecturer sent her an e-mail approving her thesis. 
what happened in real life is that her lecturer told her in her face that her thesis was okay, she just have some minor spelling errors here and there. once she corrected them, the thesis is good to go. Alhamdulillah....
but i know that my dreams are coincidental in nature. i'm not God to say for sure that these things will happen in the future. 
i dreamt of my dead grandfather entering his own house after almost 10 years of his passing, and i hugged him tightly, sobbing on his shoulders for i missed him so much. he hugged me back and told me how much i've grown. 
but will this happen in the future, nope. it's almost impossible. *there's a lump in my throat*
i also dreamt of me pulling out a cow *or was it a horse? 'm not sure* from the drain in front of my grandma's house, and i was crying so hard, watching the cow struggling to get out. i managed to get him out of the drain and i hugged him, asking him if he was okay. he just stared into my eyes blankly. i don't remember what happened after that. what is the meaning of this dream? i have no idea. will i really pull out a cow all by myself in the future? or will i have a pet cow? no idea.
the thing is, only He knows what's the meaning of all the dreams, and He for sure knows if any of them will happen in the future for sure. as for me, i shall keep on dreaming...

non-Muslims are better

Assalamualaikum, readers. 
i know it's been a while since i blogged. it's been almost two weeks. whoa! sorry. i was caught up with my exams, Eid and my cousin sister's wedding, and exams again! 
anyways, since yesterday was the day we finished our exams, we decided to watch a movie. a movie that needed very little concentration, a comedy movie. i chose Singh is King, a Hindi movie. it was a funny movie indeed.
have you watched any Hindi movies before? do you realize there'll be like 10-15 second clip of their God and some Holy verses that are read during that clip? only after that clip will the movie introduces the producer and the director and thus, the movie begins. for a person who have been watching Hindi movies since forever, i did realize. and my friend who is still new with Hindi movies, she was surprised with the clip. and i actually told her this is kindda normal. it's a symbol of them seeking God's blessing for the movie. and somehow, we ended up with comparing Hindi movies with Malay movies. 

"kalau cerita Melayu, ayat-ayat Quran akan ada bila cerita hantu, benda-benda khurafat ja. kalau bukan cerita macam tu, memang x da la"

translation: in Malay movies, only horror genre involving elements that are against the religion involves some verses from the Holy Quran. otherwise, there's none.

so, yeah, in this particular aspect, somehow i think the non-Muslims are more religious than us, Muslims. we pray five times every day, while the non-Muslims pray at least once a day, or once a week. but we don't apply anything related to God when we talk about entertainment. Malay movies nowadays are more vulgar than ever. the choice of words used, fashion sense, concept of God, everything is so out of place. 
i don't mind one playing a role of a wife in a movie, you don't have to play the role to the point of a wife in a real life. because in the end, the person who plays the role of your husband in the movie ain't your husband at all. so, what does that mean? 
it's HARAAM!
i can go on forever about this. i'm not condemning the industry. i support the industry. but to gain my full respect to the industry is kindda hard. there's always some parts in the movie that goes wrong, even if it's a religious-based movie. i wonder if they ever get some opinions from the imaams, who have better knowledge in this matter.
alright, i wanna take a nap. nite2

movie review: Bohsia 2: Jalan Kembali

Assalamualaikum, readers. 

Rempit

today, i would like to share about another movie i watched last night, Bohsia 2: Jalan Kembali. Bohsia means girls who hangs out with boys until late at night, and those who are involved in multiple sexual partners activity. most of the time, the word 'bohsia' is used when it comes to rempit, an unhealthy, illegal motorcycle riding activity which takes place late at night in the streets of town. rempit used to be so common about 5-7 years back, now rempit has reduced in number, we don;t hear much about underage students rempit in the middle of the night anymore. 

so, this movie is actually a sequel from the previous movie, Bohsia: Jangan Pilih Jalan Hitam, which i didn't watch. my friends only have the second part to this sequel, so i will explain about the second part of the movie. first of all, the line-up cast for this movie is superb. we have all the gangsters in here, the best actress who can portray the life as a bohsia and everything in between.

what i learn from this movie is that it's never easy to turn into a new leaf. your past will always haunt you, and even if you finally forgive yourself for your past, people around you will keep mentioning about your past, bringing it up and make you fall till you feel like there's no hope for you. but that's not the reason why you shouldn't change. in this movie, the character, Amy checked herself into an institute which helps females to gain back their confidence and try to work with their soul, bringing them closer to the religion, so that they will become better place in the future. Amy forgave herself after whatever that has happened in Bohsia 1, but some other colleagues of hers found out about her past and kept tormenting her. whenever she feels like she can repent for her sins, these people would come and tear her insides. they used harsh words on her parents. somehow, she was bullied so badly that she checked herself out of the institution. she told her roomate that she really want to change, but if the environment isn't helping her to become better, there's no use in spending time there.

Tasha played by Nabila Huda

next is the character Tasha. Tasha is a rough, tough girl. she defends herself even when she's up against a man. what i learnt from Tasha is that sometimes, they don't make the choice to become a bohsia. they don;t want to be so cheap, but because of several reasons, they just have to. that's the only way to live. and Tasha was so mad when another girl, played by Hetty Sarlene, wanted to be a bohsia. from here you'd know that even she herself hates the fact that so many girls out there were stupid enough to think that bohsia is actually a cool thing to do. the other thing that caught my attention is when Tasha actually told her ex-boyfriend that now that she's already a bad person, she might as well continue life as a bad person. people will always know her as a bad person, what's the point in changing? 

if you watch this movie, somewhere along the line, you'd see that all the main characters somehow wants to change for the better, they want to pray and repent for their sins, but they have this big ego in their heads. they believe that once you repent, you will have to stop wearing T-shirts and ride the motorcycle. they always believe that a person who has repented must wear a kopiah, to cover their heads for men and always hold on to a string of beads called tasbih. but that's not the case. you can repent and yet maintain wearing T-shirts and jeans, as long as you cover your aurah. 

this movie is worth watching, but again, please don't watch with kids anywhere around you. the words used in this movie is super harsh and shouldn't be heard by kids, even teenagers. if you want to watch with your sons and daughters, make sure they are at least above 19. at least they can think.

thanks for reading.

*somehow i think i should start writing reviews for movies*

movie review: untuk 3 hari

Assalamualaikum, readers.
today, i'll be a movie critic for a Malaysian movie, 'Untuk 3 Hari' which simply means For 3 Days. the plot is about two lovers who married some other people, with a plan. they plan to get married with the other half for 3 days only, and on the third day, they'll ask for talak or divorce. and when everything is settled, these two lovers will get married to one another and live happily ever after. well, that's just the plan. 
the cats line-up is exciting. the two lovers, played by Vanida Imran and Rashidi Ishak are actually husband and wife in real life. but in this movie, they will get married to Afdlin Shauki and Ayu Raudhah respectively. 
what caught my attention while watching the movie is the fact that the young generation have no idea what marriage is. all they know is to attend the marriage classes and get married with the one they love. 
in this movie, the character played by Rashidi was the one who came out with the plan. he told his girlfriend (Vanida) to use sleeping pills and pepper spray to prevent her future husband from touching her. this is one of the funny parts in the movie. well, i don't want to exaggerate more on this, but i can assure you you'd love this movie. so, go watch it if you haven't. but please, don't watch this movie with kids, they would ask a lot and everything you explain would end up wrong and adult-ish. please don't.
one message i got from this movie just made what i believed all along stronger. you can love a stranger called husband after marriage. 
okay, i hear some gasps and growling back there. let me explain.
say A is a girl and B is a guy. B has a girlfriend but he is forced to marry A. B refuses to have any physical contact with A, because he claims he doesn't love A. 
living in the same house, in the same room, of course B sees A drying her hair after she bathes. B definitely smells the sweet scent of A, right? definitely, B will start to fall for A. that's the reason why Islam doesn't allow women to put on really nice perfume, coz they can attract guys. okay, say B has a strong love towards his girlfriend, and he tries his very best to look away and not noticing. A cooks for B and cleans the house. A even irons clothes for B. won't B fall for A? B has never received this much attention and help even from his girlfriend. sooner or later, B WILL DEFINITELY fall for A.
the last thing i could think of is a physical contact between A and B. say B falls sick, and has a bad headache. of course, A as a loving wife, would apply some ointment on her husband's forehead. B would somehow melt at the touch of A. even if A has rough hands, the contact between a lady and a man would melt him. he would definitely fall for A.
therefore, there's no such thing as i can't love you after marriage because i don't know you. marriage itself is a process of getting to know one another. you share the same house, the same room, the same bathroom, the same car, one bank account. you fight, yeah, most definitely, but also, you find a way out of it. that's what marriage is all about.
at most, a guy and a girl would fall for their respective halves in one month. if they don't fall completely for their husband or wife, they've at least developed the love for them.
in the case of the movie, they fell in love at the 3rd day. 
nothing is impossible. if you are in this situation, pray a lot and seek help and guidance from Him. it's not easy, but you can work it out. all you need is patience and honesty.