nervous

i'm so excited that i'm afraid something will happen in the future. something bad.
Nau'zubillah...
please pray for everything to go easy and that nothing come up till the end of time. aminn...

listen...for once

How come i will have to listen to you every time and i am expected to give some response right after, but when it comes to me wanting you to listen, you're never there?

you're always looking at something or someone, or fidgeting like you want me to stop quickly, or you pretend you're listening when you're not?

do you know how annoyed that make me feel?

it feels like i gave up on you and i don't want to share anything with you anymore.

but every time i do that, you'd feel left out, and i am sure to get an apology from you. 

and trust me, you've made me feel bad.

sometimes i wonder if you're really my friend. because friends listen to each other. 

but maybe it's all my fault.

maybe i should not tell you anything about me or my family. for all you'd do is ignore and push me away.

don't wanna listen? FINE!