tonight i wanna cry

i have no idea what to do or feel right now...i thought my darkest moment in life was over as i didn't receive the call for a whole week, but then i received the message just now & rushed off. it's all a big puzzle...i don't know how should i react, as i was very calm in the room...i am definitely stressed and shocked about this, but what more can i do? breakdown and cry? that wouldn't change anything...

tadi masa solat, ema sujud lama sangat, dlam sujud yg lama tu, hati ema merintih sayu, nk menangis, tapi roomates semua dlm bilik. kalau diorang x dak, mmg dh teresak2 nangis...Allah je yg dengar rintihan sayu ema, Dia yg paham situasi ema, mslh ema...all i can do is pray...pray harder than ever...