untuk kamu agama kamu, untuk kami agama kami

*fuyohh, baca tajuk je dah gempak kan?* insyaAllah, this time around, i would be sharing my life sharing a room with two juniors of different religions. and i will be sharing this room for one whole year. 
if you're wondering who these people are and why am i stuck with juniors of different religions, here's the story. well, last year, it seems like i didn't get enough merit points *or should i say a lot of people was obsessed with the merit points, some even got up to 200 merit points?* and so i was kicked out from my previous hostel in Nurani and offered to a newly built apartment of Murni *still on campus*. but living in the apartment would cost me RM 2000++ for a whole year. Alhamdulillah, i got an offer *one week before entering year 2* to stay in Murni hostel. and i accepted! 
i got here one week later, opened my room and the first thing is noticed were some miniatures of God of Hindus. i was shocked, but continued my way in the room and unpacked my stuff. i kept on wondering who would my other junior be. and deep inside, i wished she was a Muslim. but because i couldn't spot her praying clothes, i assumed it would be a Chinese. and i was wrong. both my roomates were Hindus. 

when i told my friend about my roomates, they laughed. i was like, 'What's so funny?' they are also students like us, here to fight for the noble job as a doctor. they also have responsibilities for their parents, family, community and religion. 
don't worry too much because my room is separated in half. meaning i get the half of the room for myself and the room is separated by a huge cupboard in the middle. so, these two juniors would never see me praying and same goes to me. i felt secure living behind the cupboard, praying and reciting the Holy Quran, without any disturbances, Alhamdulillah. 
why didn't i change rooms?
the thing i want to highlight here is, despite i'm sharing a room with two non-Muslims, that doesn't change anything. i mean, if you're afraid of them influencing me to doing something against the Islam, i think living in the same room with a Muslim doesn't guarantee that i would never commit sins in life. friends play a major role in who you become, but in the end, it's up to you. you control how you want to be, you control what you do...i've lived with 3 other Muslims before and that didn't lead me anywhere but quarrels and arguments throughout the year. i got stressed a lot, especially towards the end. and truthfully, i'm glad i'm living with these two. they're doing whatever they do and we only talk sometimes over the weekend. 
there's a reason why He chose me to be sharing a room with them and i must believe it that. maybe i would learn more on how to cope with different people. 
a lot of my friends advised me on changing rooms, they were afraid of the miniatures they saw. but as long as we have faith in Allah, nothing comes in the way right? 
i'm not saying i'm a good Muslim, but i'm trying to be better. in a situation like this, i have to become stronger at heart, in my faith to Islam. and i like it like that. i don't lose anything...insyaAllah, pray for me...

P/S: it's been 3 weeks now. and so far so good. Alhamdulillah...

romantic?

i was listening to Fly FM Pagi Rock Crew yesterday and the two deejays, Prem & Hafiz were talking about how important dates are. *by the way, Hafiz will get married in a month and 3 days* 
and so they were discussing on how important dates are in marriage-especially to the women. if men forgot the important dates, he's dead.

"abang tidur luar malam nie!"

and then, i remembered about my parents. my dad is a businessman, work in his own time but all he thinks about is money. however, he's nothing like the businessman you see in the dramas. we live in modesty. my dad only remembers dates for the first time. like my mum's 1st birthday after marriage and their 1st wedding anniversary. and that's it. no more celebrations after that, no more wishing one another after that. 

guess what? never did my dad slept outside nor did they fight. would you want to guess how long were my mum and dad married? 26 years to be exact.

i admit my dad isn't the romantic, lovey-dovey type, but he's romantic in his own ways. 

he doesn't buy fancy gifts for my mum on her birthdays-at least not that i know of. for my mum's 1st birthday celebration after her marriage to my dad, my dad bought a small ice-cream cake for my mum and they celebrated with my mum's family. *she lives with my dad's family after marriage* 

after three kids, the love is still there. and me, being the cheekiest among my siblings, ALWAYS tease my dad around. sometimes, i would let him know that it's my mum's birthday that day when she's busy in the kitchen. and the three of us would sit around our dad and give him ideas on what to do. usually, it's treating the whole family to dinner. we used to go out for dinner, but for the past 5 years, my dad would go out on his own and buy us food for dinner. it's nasi kandar and ayam goreng rempah. *living in Penang does not make us eat nasi kandar everyday k?*

do my parents fight? yes, sometimes. they come from two different worlds and sometimes they fight. i remember calling my mum and dad the Ribena Twist. both come from separate worlds, but are a perfect match. they complete one another in the most unexpected ways and i love them both so much!

i can't imagine seeing anybody in my dad's or mum's places. i'm glad they got married. Alhamdulillah...

jiwa kacau..

it's been months now, since we ever spoke to one another on the phone, text or even Facebook message one another.
*don't get me wrong, i'm not n a relationship with ANYONE*
it never crossed my mind to even text or call until i see your name on my handphone. and just like that, my phone went missing. i felt so lost and alone. i don't remember anybody's number except my house phone number, dad's and sister's. wow. and at that time, i totally felt as if He was looking down on me and saying, 'there's a reason i let your handphone go missing' and i understood that. 
in the most craziest moments, you did text message me, wishing me Raya, and i did the same. and then, dead. that was the end of a conversation. very brief. somewhat, i'm not sad it ended there. it was as if we have nothing to talk about. we used to talk crap on Raya, message after message-there's no end to them. now, i think we're both different. i'm trying to be a better me, and maybe you do to. i don't know. whatever it is, i'm glad this is how we are. just the way we should be-from the beginning. but things happen for a reason, and i won't blame you for everything that has happened. if i were to be given a chance to go back, i'd undo some things. sadly, i can't. 
i'm feeling better about myself now, Alhamdulillah. so many things happened in my 1st year. and i'm determined to be a new me right from the start. InsyaAllah, i can.

 

a book to share

it's something extraordinary for me to read a novel, and to be moved my the book. i was so touched by how the author brought about the novel. the book i read was Tautan Hati by Fatimah Syarha. this book was borrowed by a friend of mine, Neena. she's a nice friend, my fellow batch mate. she borrowed me this novel for 3 weeks-well, that's pretty much my holidays. 
honestly speaking, this novel is rather 'heavy' for me. but because i am a student who used to study in an Islamic school, i'm pretty much used to some of the info in the novel. however, there's still so much aspects i haven't applied in life. it's hard, realizing i was brought up in the perfect environment every parent wish for their kiddos, and i only apply an itsy-bit of what i learn for the past 5 years in my life. now that i'm far away from my teachers and the environment, i start to feel empty. i seek what i need for my life the hard way. one of the ways is through this novel.
the novel taught me a lot on bringing Islam to a whole new level. wherever we are, whatever we do, the job to spread Islam, talk about good deeds and guiding people into doing the right things in life is still on our shoulders. i thought i was doing pretty okay, with my pace, trying to persuade my roommate to follow me to usrah, sharing stuff i know with my kak usrah, spreading the importance of entertainment in the world and plans for them to dominate us, helping a friend to read the Quran and sharing the best quotes in the Quran...
after reading through the novel, i realized, i have so much more to do...not just what i have done so far. this novel have opened my mind wider than i expected. i have a lot more to do...
i recommend all of you guys to read this book, but honestly, this book is rather 'heavy'. do not read this book if you're very much prejudice towards students from an Islamic school. you need to have an open mind to read this novel. even i had problems and conflicts as i went through the novel...

the best of the best

i've been planning to write this article since...i don't remember anymore...but one thing i can tell you, it's been a while, i've been thinking of writing this article right here...too many things happened...so, here goes...

this article is a tribute to the best of the best. these bands were once my favourite, and will always be, because of these people...

1) Panic! At The Disco, The Cab

i will no lie, but i honestly love this guy so much! he is one of the best guitarist alive on planet Earth. he's young, cute, funny...and talented of course! you should watch him perform his solo guitar and his fingering is awesome. he's in control in his solos, and all eyes would be glued to him. and that's also when i'd be 'OOHHH...and AHHHH' hahha...

sadly, this guy is no more in either bands. he called it quits during the most recent Panic! At The Disco concert. no idea why he'd do something like that. but he kept saying, he wanted to do more honest music. *whatever that means*

opps, i forgot, he's Ian Crawford!

2) Yellowcard

i used to listen to Yellowcard because of this dude right here. remember the songs, 'Only One' and 'Ocean Avenue'? these songs stand out the most when this dude, Sean Mackin comes in with his awesome violin. this is also one of the reasons why this band is unique. no other bands perform with a violin so far. sadly, Sean is battling cancer-thyroid cancer. let's hope he recovers quickly...and yeah, he is still in Yellowcard.

3) Maroon 5

Jesse Carmichael is the Ah-Ha factor in Maroon 5. he's a very laid back guy, relaxed and   funny-i guess...i mean, i've never hang out with him, how would i know he's funny, right?

he's the WOW factor, besides Adam's unique voice. i used to love 'This Love' because of the sound of keyboard coming from Jesse. also, Jesse is cute. 

they have come a long way, and i found out recently that Jesse went his way. i was expecting to see Jesse rocking a key or two in the band's latest single, 'One More Night' but he was nowhere to be seen during their live performance. shocking to see a new dude where Jesse should be. 

googled a bit and found out Jesse made the decision to leave the band. 

now, i have no idea where he is, which band would he play for or where will i be able to see him perform. i'm doomed. 

i hope he does not regret this decision at all and i can't wait to hear more great music from him..