JPJ kali ke 2

tgok tajuk pun dah tau kan, yg ema fail kali pertama. so, tadi mmg ketaq lutut, ketaq tgn, ngantuk semua...sbb lama tunggu diorang habis...bila time plak, hujan turun. mmg bertambah takut la cik ema kan? but then lps dah hbis bukit, ema ikut suka ja pegi parking lot yg kosong, tgok2 ema pilih kwsn paling jauh ngan pegawai JPJ tue. mmg cari nahas la...lps dah hbis parking, angkat tgn punya lama, sbb x nmpk peg tue bagi signal suruh jalan! haahahaha....then, mausk 3 point-turn, lps masuk tue baru perasan yg masuk rapat sgt dgn kwsn sblh kiri. but then mana blh main reverse2, jalan la...time tue mmg tgh expect tayar kereta naik ats bahu jalan. sbb rapat sgt...tapi, Alhamdulillah, sbb pilih kereta kancil, kwsn yg agk luas, so, lps laa...lega!!

lps tue, kakak ema pick ema dari situ, terus pegi isi perut, sbb lapar gila. then, dari situ, pi Balik Pulau & Teluk Bahang. jalan kt situ plak sngat la berbukit tmbh berbakau. tapi scenery dia sgtlah mesmerizing. tmbanh ngan udara yg sejuk + nyaman...mmg Allah is Great!! really love smelling the sea from up in the hills. really love looking at the trees...oh, by the way, first time kot, tgok pokok durian! haha...

mr right?

pagi tadi tetiba mimpi psl exercise. tetiba jaa...apa jadi ngan ema pun x tau...

ema mimpi ema pakai jacket grey ema , zip itup & then terus lari kt bwh flat ema. 

time tue ada ramai budak laki kt bwh, tapi ema buat x reti & 

lari smbil kepala tertunduk ke bawah. 

elok dok seronok berlari2, then ema diblok oleh 3 budak laki yg lari pelan2, beriringan. 

so, ema x dak chance la nk overtake diorang. 

las las, ema mendengus & turn back to run one more round. 

masa nie lah ema terserempak ngan a guy yg sgt la tinggi, bdn sedap2, 

ada muscle sikit kt bhagian lengan dia, tgh  jogging. 

ema nmpk dia, tapi buat dunno jaa. tapi dia tegur ema. 

'jom lari together? i can keep you company. jogging nie kena ada kwn, baru seronok'

ema x tau ema ckp apa kt dia, but then kitaorg mmg lari together. siap gelak2 lagi...haizz...

elok tegah seronok dok jogging ngan dia, En F berhenti kt dpn kitaorg. 

before i knew it, diorang dah bertumbuk-tumbuk.

aiyo, mcm dlm movie la plak!!

ema mcm meleraikan diorang, but then Mr Right tue cedera sikit kt muka dia. 

ema tnya dia ok x, dia ckp dia ok ja.

lps tue, mmg ema bwk dia balik, sbb dia dah cedera.

plg x leh blah, is the fact yg ema pegang tgn dia, & pimpin dia naik ats tangga, smpai ke lif.

dah la ada ramai budak laki kt situ. semua mmg dah mula gossip psl ema & this guy la.

but then, funny thing is, ema let go of him kt dpn lif & ema buat dunno kt dia.

dia plak yg ckp, 'kita jumpa lagi besok ek? thank you'

ema dgn penuh x berperasaan, ignore dia & just angguk kepala. 

then, i left him there, naik tangga balik rumah!

tapi ema takut...sbb ema x nak terkandas dlm bnda2 mcm nie..

it's scary coz we've been talking bout this matter for the past few days 

& now ema plak yg mimpi bnda cmnie...

takut if this means i will eventually fall in love, do stuff like that...

Ya Allah, selamatkanlah aku...

trip to school...

so, on last Friday, ema put a night in school. seems like the school has changed a lot. the teachers still remembered us, Alhamdulillah. kitaorg share satu bungkus nasi 3 org! haha...sbb mmg x dak selera sgt nk mkn. tapi sbb cikgu punya paksa kitaorg mkn, makn jelah...

lps tue, solat jemaah, baca Quran together dari Maghrib smpai Isya' & dgq ceramah from a guy yg converted to Islam in his teens. happy gila, sbb approach yg dia guna agk different. sgt menarik...lps tue, kitaorg naik surau, mau tidoq. tapi, kitaorg bincang psl mcm2 bnda smpai x tidoq...hahaha....cikgu2 plak amanahkan kitaorg jaga sorang budak yg sakit kt surau tue. plg x leh prcaya is the fact that ema tuam kepala dia smpai dia tidoq. i mean, kalau ema yg sakit pun, mak suh pi mandi air sejuk & wrap myself with my dad's XXXL denim jacket. and my only experience ema tuam org is my brother. itu pun masa dia kecik2.
bottomline is, kitaorg xz tidoq until almost 3 am. then pukul 3.30am bgun amik air smbhyg sbb nk Qiam. honestly, ema ckp, 1st time ema solat sunat tasbih kt skolah, ema x tidoq! hahaha...imam nie lain skit, dia tasbihy laju2, so, x ngantuk sgt laa...tapi, mcm mana ntah, ema terkandas masa dia bgi tazkirah Subuh. dah la time tu ema dok betul2 dpn dia. kepala plak dok tersengguk2 ke kiri & kanan...malu!!
after breakfast, we were told to turun dewan coz ada kursus jenazah. but then, x smpai satu jam ema dok kt situ, ema dah x thn nagntuk. so, kami berempat escape ke surau...kitaorg sembang2 & tukar2 fikiran psl so many things, then pi singgah kedai mamak blkg skolah! mmg lawak gila kitaorg kt situ! mcm2 bnda jadi kt situ...hahaha...this is one of the best memories i've ever had with my friends...alhamdulillah, Allah bagi kesempatan utk ema spend time ngan kwn2 ema, garap mcm2 jenis ilmu yg ema bljr kt situ...Alhmdulillah...

confession

i so wanna say this badly to you, but i can't.

i so wanna tell you that he's nice & kind & loving, but i can't

i so wanna tell you that he's normal & ur the one abnormal, but i can't

i so wanna tell you that boys eventually will go back to their own self, but i can't

i so wanna scream out to you, 'you're INSANE', but i can't

i so wanna text you & comfort you, but i can't

i so wanna call you & explain everything, but i can't

i so wanna stop the influence from her, but i can't

i so wanna tell you that ur an idiot, but i can't

i so wanna tell you that ur finding excuse, but i can't

i so wanna tell you that u'll never find a man in your life, but i can't

i don't know what else i can do...but to pretend i understand you, 

to pretend i'm totally on ur side,

to feel what ur feeling,

to keep on supporting you...

ckp x serupa bikin!

aiyo!! apasal ek org suka sgt kasi janji manis,  lps tue x kotakan? pening kepala den tau x? mula2 ckp akn sayang org tue no matter what. siap ema ksi warning lagi...dia ckp dia tau...lps tue, bila ada ja mslh kecik kemetot, dia x leh nk accept & handle bnda. terus pikir nk break! 
eh, auntie, kalau ini mcm la kan, mcm mana nk kawen?
bila pikir bnda mcm nie kan, naik meluat tau x? dah berapa kali kapel, xkn x tau lagi kot apa bnda yg kena tolak-ansur, bnda apa yg betul, bnda apa yg salah? aku yg x kapel pun tau apa bnda yg real & bnda yg fake. itu la gunanya kawan ngan laki. kita tau diorang mcm mana. i'm not proud of the way i was friends with guys, but i'm proud i have friends like them. yg anggap me as a friend, not more not less. bila kawan ngan diorang, ema kenal ngan diorang inside out. 
tapi bila ema kawan ngan diorang, ramai ckp ema skandal la. ema gatai la. sakit hati ema dengar, but then itulah realitinya kan? budak yg kawan ngan laki byk2 akn dianggap sbgai gatai & budak yg x ckp langsung ngan laki dianggap very nice & sopan. ema x blame anybody ek? but then realize it or not, org yg dianggap sopan la yg skandal all over actually. janji nk sayang ngan laki nie, & then bila laki tue dah naik busy smpai x leh nk layan dia, dia cari laki lain. pastu, mintak putus. bukan skandal ka? (dah laa, malas nk ckp psl bnda nie...berbuih mulut...)


kalau dah rasa bnda tue salah, jgn kapel in the first place. ini x...lps perasaan dah berputik, tunggu smpai dia dah x call @ layan, baru pikir alasan utk end the relationship. haizz...
ada ka patut dia ckp, 'aku rasa aku x layak utk dia. di baik, aku jahat!' 
patutnya, u realize that in the very beginning. penat tau x nk handle bnda mcm nie almost every day? ada2 ja mslh ngan budak2 kapel ni. it rises anger & spoil my whole day!

P/S: swear never to let my guards down for some fools! definitely not into the kapel thingy whingy!

diskriminasi?

so yesterday my sis & i went out to shop for my brother. kitaorg keluar rumah tnpa solat zohor, sbb takut lmbt kt BJ. masa kitaorg keluar mmg dah azan Zohor. but then perjalanan diteruskan, misis mncari baju melayu uk adik yg mengada x mo ikut! masa kitaorg balik dari BJ, dah pukul 4.30, nk masuk solat Asar. my sis asked if there are any surau around. but then x jumpa, so kitaorg teruskn jelah smpai ke rumah. but then dah masuk asar pun. hmm...
but then my sister's statement agak mengejutkan afterwards. dia ckp masjid x bagi kita masuk kalau kita x pakai proper. (proper di sini bermaksud baju kurung @ menutup aurat sepenuhnya, tanpa memakai pakaian moden) tapi betul ka pak-pak imam masjid akn halau kita keluar just becoz kita x pakai naju kurung & x pakai tudung labuh? stahu ema, x penah lagi la kena halau dari masjid sbb pakai baju moden ngan jeans.
pada penadapat ema, masjid adlh tempat manusia berkumpul, bincang pasal mslh semasa, medan berdakwah. so, ema rasa masjid memang benarkan org bukan Islam masuk masjid, sbagai tempat berteduh, tempat utk berehat terutamanya. those yg bermusafir. bukankah begitu? x silap ema, zaman Rasulullah dulu mcm tue. 


sbb, teori ema mcm nie. 
~ bila org non-muslim stay kt masjid, dengar azan & then nmpk org pegi sembahyang, dengar ceramah2 @ diskusi yg org Islam buat dlm masjid, insya-Allah, hati dia akn terbuka menerima Islam. 
~ kalau dia bermalam kt masjid, & tengok betapa mesranya org Islam layang dia, hati dia mungkin akn nmpk kemesraan yg org Islam nie bukan lah mendiskriminasikan dia just becoz of dia punya agama. 
~ kalau dia masuk & tgok ayat2 suci al-Quran men'decorate' ruang masjid, smpai ada cahaya nur dlm masjid, dia mungkin akn nmpk keindahan masjid sendiri.


so, i think sapa2 @ mana2 pihak yg cuba x bagi anybody yg dikatakan x tutup aurat daripada masuk masjid, i think salah la idea tue. mungkin korang x nmpk point ema. korang mesti akn ckp, masjid tue tmpt suci, yg masuk mestilah tutup aurat ngan baik. 
tapi ema cuba bagi korang satu lagi situasi k?
kalau kata la ada akad nikah kt masjid. yg pegi tue mesti perempuan & lelaki. tapi kita tgok baju apa yg diorang pakai masuk masjid. baju moden gak. ada yg pakai tudung tapi x tutup ngan elok. tapi still, dibenarkan masuk dlm masjid. 
kenapa?
nmpk x different situation lead to different solution kan?

kwnku bersepah-sepah!

hahaha...kwn2 ema ada di merata-rata, mcm2 course plak tue...

dari yg paling familiar kepada yg paling unknown! 

medicine, pharmacy, engineering, law...

smpai ke course pelik2 mcm sel & molekul, mekatronik engineering, perhutanan..

hmm, apa-apa pun, ema bersyukur pada Allah sbb semua kwn ema pun dpt tmpt kt 

universiti-universiti Malaysia

smpai bersepah-sepah jadinya! 

UITM, UniMAP, UKM, UM, UKM, UNIMAS, UTM

tapi, USM Kubang Kerian, wait for me! i'll be there in no time & will struggle & strive for

5 years...

insya-Allah, akn ku bergelar dr ema. hihihihi....

bittersweet moment! course yg susah...tapi nk jadi doktor...

insya-Allah....

susah ke?

soalan trivia hari ini... 

'susah ke nk pakai anak tudung @ serkup?'


hmm...bukan nk marah ke apa kan? 
but then ema perasan ramai sgt yg x suka pakai anak tudung. 
x kisah la whether diorang pakai tudung biasa atau selendang. 
problem is, the hair still nmpk. 
well, kita pakai tudung utk tutup aurat kita kan? 
why not tutup smpai habis. tutup bagi perfect. 
susah ke?


ema pun tgh memperbaiki diri ema & i found a way to avoid wearing anak tudung. 
but then cara nie lagi sakit kepala & panas for some people la. 
ema pakai anak tudung syria & tudung syria skali before pakai selendang. 
sbb selendang ema pakai nie jarang, nmpk leher.
dlm kes ema, bila pakai anak tudung, kpala ema nmpk besar sbb ank tudung ema tebal.
x salah kalau kita bersusah skit utk nmpk kemas & perfect kan?
tau x, org yg x pkai ank tudung sbnrnya akn rasa lagi pns drpd org yg pakai ank tudung?
i'm not talking bout neraka or anything. 
imagine rmbut pnjg dia tue poking on the neck, plus ngan cuaca yg panas mmbahang skrg.
x rimas ke? x rasa peluh kt bhgian leher?


besides that, the rambut akn kembang kt blkg tudung & u'll look like the statue of Firaun.
bukn nk ckp terok la kan? but then that's what i experience with some people.
dah kita ckp, dia x mo dengaq, kita pun mls la nk ckp. 
alasan org tue, sbb x mo rmbut dia rosak bila bungkuskn dlm ank tudung.
????????


pikir-pikirkanlah. 
ikut diri korang, mcm mana nk cover the hair dgn perfect, so that aurat kita terjaga.
ingatlah bahawasanya, ema merupakan seorang insan yg lemah. 
ema pun tgh cuba utk perbaiki diri ema sebaik yg mungkin dgn cara ema sndiri.

bwk kereta

smlm told my dad i wanna bring the car out kejap. just pusing2, get ued to the car. dad pun ckp ok jaa...but then dia ckp bwk kereta tue keluar before lunch hour, sbb jalan akn sesak. so, pukul 12.15 baru turun & start kereta.
but then sbb kereta kt parking spot semuanya penuh, it's kindda difficult to keluar. so in the end, kereta tue dok pi depan & balik from its parking spot. tmbh plak ngan minyakl yg tinggal ciput. hahaha...

a good politician is a good actor

smlm lepas penat beli baju raya, i came back and sat in front of the tv smbil dengar celoteh my dad. then, i saw a survey that was conducted by some people about belia Malaysia. antara bnda yg agk menarik perhatian adlh 66% belia masih x mndaftar untuk mengundi. i wasn't surprised at all. 

i remembered someone on TV said that a good politician is a good actor. of course he is a good actor. he has to show his people that he is tough & strong though he's weak on the inside. he must try and lead his people to vote for him instead of the opposition. funny thing is, my teacher told me that it doesn't matter who wins actually. whether its the opposition or the government, coz in the end, we're tied up with the Perlembagaan Malaysia. the Perlembagaan is like our Holy Quran, the Bible. you must follow what's written & stated in it, no matter what happens. 

but then our politician (regardless of who they are) are making this whole thing a big drama. to them, the better they act, the louder the applause. and my dad has  theory. yg our politician dok ckp 'pihak A pukul i dulu' then pihak A will go like, 'kitaorg x nmpk pun B ada kt situ'. but could it be that B hit himself and then accuse A of doing it? and then create a whole scene with the media & all?? hmm...cuba pikir2...

betul ke? confirm?

hmm...apa tue? nk cerita psl apa plak ari nie? hihihiih...okay, hari nie ema nk ckp psl was was. well, one of my cousin kindda asked this question to me, 'ema, mcm mana nk hilangkan persaan was was ek?'

hmm, i've been thinking since then, sbb i pun dunno what to answer kan? tapi stlh sekian lama, ingin saya bgtau apa cara2 nk elakkan perasaan was was atau nk hilangkan terus perasaan was2 nie.

well, actually perasaan nie ikut topik yg kita ckp la. jadi sama2 kita ulas one by one k?

1-solat

1st kita pi bab solat la kan? kalau ckp psl solat, mungkin sometimes kita terlalu fikir psl something smpai kita lost count of brapa rakaat, what ur reading & stuff like that. sebenarnya, it's very difficult utk concentrate & smpai ke tahap taqwa @ khusyuk dlm solat. sgt susah k? my ustazah once said yg dia nk khusyuk solat, but then bila dia x dgq suara anak dia, dia jadi gelabah & started to think where's her daughter smpai dia hilang concentration dlm solat, but then masih terjaga la hukum & adab solat.
but then satu je advice yg i can give psl bab solat nie. try to solat dlm suasana yg agak quiet & not switch off the lights sbb grandma ckp it'll allow the syaitans to kacau u easily. well, she's kindda right sbb kita akn pikir psl hantu & start to hear things like paper flying & then kita akn rasa something wrong kan? dah hilang concentration dlm solat! haha...one more thing is try to slow down in reciting anything in the solat itself. baca slow2 & kalau blh, fahami mksud dia.

2-puasa

selalunya bila bab puasa nie, kita akn ragu psl niat kita. get this people, niat bukn hanya pada lisan tau? even though kita dah niat nk puasa satu bulan dlm bulan Ramadhan pada awal bulan tue, hati kita kena niat gak every day. guess what? ema tau bnda nie pun masa form 5. ustazah ema ckp, cukup la skadar hati kita & diri kita tau yg kita akn puasa pada hari tersebut. ikut hati masing2 la nk niat mcm mana kan? kalau ema, ema akn ckp mcm nie, 'esok kita puasa satu hari lagi dlm bulan ramadhan' ikut la suka korang nk niat mcm mana. asalkan body kita fhm on the day yg kita puasa & utk apa.
other situations-->kalau rasa air masuk dlm telinga masa mandi tue, cpt2 la keluarkn air tue. but then jgn la guna cotton bud or anything. lie down on one side smpai air tue keluar. kalau air tue x nk keluar biar ja. x yah la jump to conclusion, saying that kita dah batal puasa or anything like that.

3-haji

bab nie ema x reti sgt, sbb ema x penah pi buat haji @ umrah pun. tapi satu bnda yg ema tau, kita dibenarkn tukaq mazhab buat smtara waktu. but this option hnya dibenarkn to people yg ada mslh jaa. contohnya, for people yg ada mslh angin, yg slalu kentut. susah la kalau dia stay dlm mazhab Syafie. sbb nanti bila dia tgh buat tawaf or anything, dia kentut, dia kena pi balik amik air smbhyg. ingatlah bahawa Islam tue agama yg mudah & Islam sgt sygkn umatnya. islam x mmbebankan kita dgn sesuatu. oleh itu, islam bgi option. based on the above case, org tue blh la tukaq ke mazhab lain yg memudahkan dia. ada satu mazhab tue (x ingat dah mazhab apa), kentut tue x btlkan air smbhyg, but belahak yg batalkan wudu'. so, bukankah ia memudahkan org yg ada mslh mcm case ats nie utk mengerjakan haji dia dgn sempurna?

4-produk harian

skrg nie mcm2 produk kita pakai setiap hari. dari kita bgu pagi, smpai kita tidoq balik pada malamnya, brapa byk produk yg kita pakai? byk kan? ubat gigi, sabun mandi, shampoo, minyak rambut, makanan & minumam yg kita mkn & minum for the day. byk kan? andthen now plak, mcm2 jenis produk yg kita tgok dlm tv. x kisah la international product @ local product, mahal @ murah, moden @ trdisional. byk sgt iklan. then, mcm2 plak rumours yg kita dgq. ada yg ckp bnda nie x elok, ada yg kita nie haram, ada yg ckp itu yg halal, yg nie haram. haizz....pening!
okay...sbnrnya, sng ja bab nie. firstly, kita x blh nk hadam sgt apa org ckp. apa org ckp tue kita dgq2 skit sudah. yg lain kita kena buat kajian la. caranya, kita tgok ingredients kt blkg produk tue. kita masuk bab alkohol dulu k? sbb alkohol nie bnda yg sgt2 sensitif. sbnrnya, bnda2 yg ada alkohol nie x menyebabkn kita mabuk mcm dlm drama tue. ada reason kenapa alkohol tue dimasukkan dlm produk kan?
for example, dlm shampoo, semuanya ada alkohol. cuma antara kita sdr ngan tidak shaja. zaman kita blaja Chemistry kt skolah @ universiti kan, kita blajar chemical name la, apa bnda ntah. propanol, ethanol...tue semua alkohol. kalaux percaya, cuba selak botol shampooyg ada kt rumah, regardless of what brand urs is. cuba tgok ada x nama -ol kt blkg dia? kalau ada, mksudnya, ada la alkohol dlm produk anda! hahaha...senang ja kan? tapi does that mean kita x blh nk pakai shampoo? cuba kita tgok what's the reason dia masukkan alkohol dlm shampoo k? adakah untuk memabukkan kita? sbnrnya, alkohol nie ada unsur2 sejuk bila dimasukkan dlm shampoo. sbb tue, bila kita pakai ats rambut, kepala rasa sejuk ja, tenang ja kepala otak. itu semua kerja alkohol yg ada dlm shampoo la. ada kebaikannya alkohol dlm shampoo, sbb halang dandruff & itchiness kt kpala.


even dalam perfume pun ada alkohol, but then dalam kuantiti yg sikit. x salah kalau pakai perfume yg ada alkohol, cumanya, bila kita amik air sembahyang, kita kena gosok betul2 la tgn kita, make sure bau perfume dah x dak kt tgn. itu ja pun...x yah kecoh2 k? hahaha...


to conclude, ema nk advice, don't trust EVERYTHING you read or hear from people. kaji dulu. pi Google, tanya mereka yg lebih arif utk pendapat diorang, the you decide. benda2 mcm nie senang ja pada asasnya, kita kena tau apa yg kita mkn, apa yg kita pakai & konsep apayg kita pakai. mmg dalam Quran x ckp, produk nie halal & produk nie haram. nor dalam hadis is stated that this particular ingredient is halal & this is haram. kita kena base atas konsep plg asas yg kita belajar zaman kecik2 dulu & the apply pada kehidupan seharian hari nie.
~wallahualam~

chaos

today i had an appointment with my dentist, Dr Patrick. my appointment was scheduled at 8.00 am but then sbb ema terlalu asyik tgok Adi Putra (the Math genius) on MHI, ema keluar rumah agak lmbt...well, not that late laa...8.10 am baru keluar. then smpai situ pukul 8.15am. 

pastu ada this Indian girl ngan mak dia kat situ. diorang tunggu almost an hour but then doctor didn't call their names. so the daughter got upset and went to the receptionist. but then receptionist ckp this girl's appointment card is not with her. that's when all the chaos starts! the daughter raised her voice towards the receptionist, and the receptionist tried her best to calm down & explain. but then the mother kept on going on and on. saying that her daughter was not called because she's an Indian. what the hell? haizz...


the mother cursed the staff by saying that the government servants are not doing their job properly, blah3. sitting in the waiting room with a drama like this as early as 8.30 am is frightening! tapi naseb baik ada nurse senior kt situ yg handled everything. she tried to stop the mother from rattling on about government. both of them just went off by stomping on the floor. hahaha....

dosa murah

something i found on my friend's page. it's interesting, check it out!

Ahmad: Assalamualaikum, mana ummi?

Alia: Waalaikumussalam warahmatullah. Ummi dah pegi keje dah. Abang gi mana tadi?

Ahmad: Beli nasi lemak untuk breakfast. Nah, amik sebungkus.

Alia: Letak la kat atas meja dulu. Nanti Lia makan.

Alia (adik Ahmad) sedang sibuk dengan hensetnya.

Ahmad: Amboi, kuat bermesej nampak! Bunyi cam anai-anai. Ko tengah chit chat ngan menteri besar ke tu?

Alia: Takde ah. Tengah SMS ngan kawan Lia la.

Ahmad: Kawan ke boyfriend? Aku kenal la ko Lia. Lain gayanye kalau ko tengah SMS ngan kawan.

Ahmad menjenguk henset Alia dan ternampak mesej "romantik" adiknya. 

Alia: Ala abang ni, nyibuk je! Biar la orang nak SMS ngan sesape pun.

Ahmad: Ye la, masalahnya bila nak topup mintak duit kat abang jugak. Kalau camni la duit abang menghilang, tobat tak nak bagi dah.

Alia: Rilek la bro! Lia pakai Celcom 8pax la. 0.5 sen je satu mesej. Tak sampai satu sen pun.

Ahmad: Hmm...dah lain ek skang.

Alia: Apa yang lainnya?

Ahmad: Harga dosa dah makin murah pulak.

Alia: ...

why eh?

pernah x korang terfikir why certain songs yg kita dah tau ada unsur2 satanism, iluminiati, free masonsy @ anything like that can still be a hit walaupun dah ditunjuk terang-benderang dlm video clip tue yg artis2 tue mengamalkan ajaran nie? 

well, 1st of all, kita kena tau yg the song itself is so nice & interesting smpai kita rasa nk dgr & dgr lagi. 4 example, masa 1st time lagu Umbrella keluar, everybody was crazy bout the song coz it's so nice, rasa mcm nk bangkit & menari. then, Lady Gaga plak mai dgn fashion revolution dia. people are interested in Gaga becoz of her peculiar fashion sense. then, her songs became hit one by one, starting with Just Dance, Poker Face, Paparazzi, Telephone & Alejandro. now Judas. hmm..kalau kita patah balik a few years back, kita ada Britney, the young innocent kid. but then she pun out of the blue jadi superstar. from Opps I did it again, Crazy, smpai ke skrg, her songs still is a hit. so, what's behind these?

Christina Alguilera

actually, kalau kita fikir dalam2, these iluminiat, freemasonry @ whatever they're called are everywhere in the industry. i'm not only talking about the United States, UK & negara yg swktu dgnnya. i'm also talking about Malaysia. we don't know who they are actually, its a small group, but getting bigger by the day. 

one thing i knew is that, kalau a person give their heart & soul to whoever their God is, let it be Lucifer, Horus @ whatever, you'll be famous within a second. you want proof, i gave u proof. and it's kindda true u see. stiap lagu yg dicipta ada mksud tersembunyi. we must be absolutely aware. to tell you the truth, sometimes i only realize there are hidden messages when it's kindda a bit late. but then once i knew there are hidden message either in the song @ the video itself, the next thing i do is DELETE! 

Princess of Iluminiati

some of the artists clearly show in their music videos that they are worshiping their god. for example, Rihanna in Umbrella, Disturbia, Rude Boy & Shut Up & Drive. kalau Britney, the most obvious is from the video I'm a  Slave for You. the others x nmpk sgt, sbb most of the people are saying the love songs yg dicipta @ dinyanyikan is not dedicated to a lover, but then their god. in the video Can;t be tamed by Miley, she's actually a wild black bird kan? it's more like a crow, & that's a symbol for the dark side. so, she's in. Same with Ashley Tisdale, (actually i baru ja figured out this) dlm video Crank it Up, she'll be wearing wings on her back. same wings like Miley, but shorter. 

so, you see, as i said above, these people are everywhere in the industry. diorang yg akn make sure the audience & the fans will go crazy & addicted with a song, so make sure the beat is awesome, but with a hidden message. only people yg aware ja yg akn refuse to listen, but the rest will continue to listen. 

the other reason is that these people devote themselves to their god, coz kalau diorang sembah & perform a certain ritual (yg smpai skrg nobody knows how & what) then, they'll remain famous. tapi, kalau diorang turn back & walk away from it, then mmg akn terima padahnya! contoh terbaik is Michael Jackson. dlm video clip They Don't Really Care About Us, Michael will be pointing at the wall yg ada the All Seeing Eye symbol. Michael left iluminiati & he suffered a lot. he went back & forth to the court for something he didn't commit & he died just before the 'This Is It' concert. was it all a coincidence? or is it a curse?

so, the conclusion is, these people are the directors, the producers, the song writers, the choreographer, the everything la. they make the song a hit, make all of us go ga-ga & then they win the jackpot!

P/S: please don't judge me for posting too many stuff bout freemasonry thingy whingy. i just felt like expressing my views, coz i've been watching a lot lately! sorry...

quran tue apa ek?

persoalan yg ema terima daripada a Chinese friend of mine masa kt matriks dulu, 

'What is Quran actually? is it a storybook?' 

haa, amik hang sebijik, dia tnya Quran tue buku cerita ka? hahaha...but then honestly, time tue, ema pun x tau nk bgtau mcm mana kt dia. tapi ema ckp la yg Quran tue lebih kurang mcm storybook la sbb ada mcm2 kisah dlm tue kan. tapi bukn buatan manusia. 

dia tnya lagi, 'is Quran written by Muhammad?'

ema ckp, 'no. Muhammad is the Prophet' Muhammad tue kan Pesuruh Allah, diangkat kedudukan dia mnjadi Rasul. Muhammad x tulis Quran ye kwn2 sekalian. Muammad tue kan Ummi, x reti menulis & mmbaca. mana mungkin Nabi kita blh karang plak Quran yg begitu indah bahasanya? hmm...

okay, but then jom kita fikir dari perspektif yg lain skit k? Quran tue lebih daripada bahasa yg indah, bahasa yg tersusun & perfect. Quran tue ada cerita para Anbiaa', ada explaination psl kejadian langit & bumi, siang & malam, ada kisah kaum2 sblm nie, kisah penciptaanj manusia, kiamat & byk lagi kan? mana mungkin Muhammad, yg pada asasnya manusia biasa mcm kita blh tau semua bnda nie? these events adlh beyond pemikiran manusia biasa. impossible la kalau Muhammad blh tau & tulis plak psl bnda2 nie dlm Quran. even dlm karya hasil Dr Danial, 'Quran Saintifik' ada beliau menyebut 'tidak mungkin Nabi Muhammad blh menemui seorang professor @ doktor @ cendekiawan dlm masa Nabi travel and learn everything in one shot.' betul x? 

sometimes, kita hnya akn realize & notice some of the things yg kita bljr slama nie dgn lbih mndalam dgn persoalan2 pelik org lain. well, obviously that happened to me. sometimes kita akn pikir soalan2 pelik, and kita kena pikir sndiri 4 a rational answer, although kita dah belajar psl bnda tue. for example, i asked this question to myself, 'kenapa Islam larang kita ber'couple'?' walaupun ema dah tau sbb apa, tapi bila kita brgaul ngan org lain, kita akn start to think the rationality of it. klik nie utk lebih maklumat

---->>>>http://bubblyema.blogspot.com/2011/05/fikir-dalam2.html

pelik but true?

selalu kita dgr org ckp kt ceramah & ustaz2 mengajar kt sekolah, kita kena lawat @ ziarah org yg dah meninggal, so that timbul kesedaran yg kita semua akn kembali pada Allah. but trust me, feeling tu akn mai bila kita sndiri experience bnda tue. slama nie, i knew that we were going to die someday, but then kita x berapa nk rasa sgt yg hidup kt dunia nie kejap ja...(okeyh, i'm crapping! back to the point k?)

my point is, i actually felt yg i won't live any longer when my dad recited the doa during a kenduri for my late grandpa. he said something like, 'tanpa dia, siapalah kami. kami akn menemui-Mu juga Ya Allah' ada la lagi yg my dad ckp, yg pastinya, i sobbed silently bila dgr doa tue. serious, masa tue gak i felt like Allah masih let me live on earth for a reason.

and then, tadi i walked my way to the driving centre. i walked pass a graveyard and i couldn't help but say in my heart as i looked at the graves, 'Wahai ahli kubur! jangan risau, x lama lagi, ema pun akn join korang' coz that's one of the things u should say besides giving salam & reciting surah al-Fatihah. as i walked, i kept looking at the graves and it brought chills to my spine. i saw holes and imagined how deep 6 feet would be. scary huh? and also, i couldn't help but to think will there be people visiting my grave? will there be people praying for me, reciting doa for me? 

perut dah rasa something wrong masa tue, sbb takut sgt @ byk fikir...

but the great thing is that bestie pun ckp psl death gak, by posting something on fb psl death. 

this is actually the poem yg bestie posted. ema paste kt sini ek?

إذا ما قال لي ربي - قصيدة أبكت الإمام أحمد If my Lord is to ask me- the poem that made Immam Ahmad cry.

(إذا ما قال لي ربـــّي )

إذا ما قال لي ربي .. أما استحييت تعصيني

  وتخفي الذنب عن خلقي .. وبالعصيان تأتيني

If my Lord asks me 

 “Have you no shame in disobeying me? 

You hide your faults from my creation  

yet full of sin you come to Me" 

فكيف أجيب يا ويحي .. ومن ذا سوف يحميني

 So what will I answer? O' Woe to me, 

and who shall protect me do you see?

أسلي النفس بالآمال .. من حين إلى حين

I keep forestalling my soul 

 with thoughts of hope from time to time  

وأنسى ما وراء الموت .. ماذا بعد تكفيني

And forgetting what is to come after death,

and after I am warped in the sheets of the dead 

 

كاني قد ضمنت العيش .. ليس الموت يأتيني

As if I have guaranteed living forever, 

 and that death will not overcome me

وجاءت سكرة الموت الشديدة من سيحميني

  Then the harsh drunkenness of death overtakes me,

who now will be able to protect me? 

نظرت إلى الوجوه أليس منهم من سيفديني

I looked at the faces, is there not from amongst them 

who will  ransom me?  

سأسأل ما الذي قدمت في دنياي ينجيني

I will be asked 

 what have I put forth in my life to save myself

فكيف إجابتي من بعد ما فرطت في ديني 

 So what will I answer, 

after I’ve been neglectful regarding my Deen

ويا ويحي ألم أسمع كلام الله يدعوني

O’ woe to me, did I not hear the

Speech of Allah calling  out to me??

ألم أسمع لما قد جاء في ق و يس

Did I not hear what has come in Qaaf'n, wa Yaseen'i

ألم أسمع بيوم الحشر يوم الجمع والدين

Did i not hear of the day the crowds will be summoned, 

the day we will be collected, and the day of al-Deen'i

ألم أسمع منادي الموت يدعوني يناديني

Did I not hear the caller of death 

calling me; seeking me

فيا رباه عبد تائب من ذا سيؤويه

O my lord a slave to you I come repenting, 

who than shall grant me shelter?

سوى رب غفور واسع للحق يهديني

Other than an oft-forgiving Lord, 

to the truth he will guide me

أتيت إليك فارحمني وثقل في موازيني

I  have come to you, so have mercy on me, 

and make heavy my weights

وخفف في جزائي أنت أرجى من يجازيني

And lighten my reckoning you are the best 

of who will bring me to reckoning

Translated by Abu Hamza

Muthupalaniappan

apa tue? asal ada nama budak Hindu? hahaha...ema nk ckp psl satu cerpenyg ema baca dalam buku Faisal Tehrani. cerita nie sangat meyayat hati. because of that, i wanna share it with all of you.

Muthupalaniappan ni budak India yg stay kt estet. ayah dia dah lama meninggal. mak dia kerja toreh getah. dia belajar kt sekolah dlm estet, sekolah jnis kebangsaan tamil. ada sorang cikgu Melayu, baru graduate universiti ditugaskan ajar English pada budak2 sekolah nie. walaupun Muthu (saya pndekkan nama dia ya, penat nk taip nama dia penuh2!) & kwn2 sekelas dia darjah 3, but then diorang x reti nk sebuta ny English word, x tau nombor pun dlm English. cikgu Melayu nie pun penat la ngaja budak2 nie. satu hari, cikgu nie masul ngaja nombor. so, she wrote down numbers from 1 to 10 & below those numbers she wrote down One, Two, three.... lps tue dia mnjerit kuat2, 'Follow me now! ONE! TWO!' 

to her surprise, budak2 tue diam, x ckp apa. sbb terkejut x fhm kebenda cikgu tue ckp kt dpn. lps a few days dok ulang bnda yg sama, Muthu nie naik bosan la. dia x tengok blackboard, tapi dok tgok kuku dia. cikgu yg kt depan nie naik berang & menjerit nama Muthu dari dpn kelas. dia mintak Muthu sebut nombor dari 1 smpai 10 dlm bhasa Inggeris. Muthu tue berdiri ja, bila cikgu tue menjerit suruh dia ckp, dia sebut nombor 1 smpai 10 dlm bahasa Tamil! hahaha...lawak gila! budak2 kelas dia diam ja, sbb trkejut ngan Muthu. sbb cikgu nie marah sgt, dia pelempang Muthu. terjatuh la budak kecik nie.

lps tue, cikgu nie bgtau semua org dlm kelas tue ulang balik nombor 1 smpai 10 dlm bahasa Inggeris. tapi semua org diam, tengok Muthu ok x. tetiba je dengar ada suara budak sebut nombor 1 smpai 10 dlm bahasa Tamil. MUTHU! dia berdiri balik & menjerit kuat2 nombor dlm bhasa Tamil. cikgu yg marah nie jalan laju2 ke arah Muthu & pelempang smpai Muthu terduduk ats lantai. then, cikgu nie keluar dari kelas tue. geram sgt.

for the next two weeks, Muthu x mai skolah, so cikgu nie pi tgok Muthu kt rumah dia. rumah Muthu teramat daif. tapi cikgu nie masuk & jumpa mak Muthu. then, cikgu nie tanya psl Muthu x mai sekolah. terus ja, mak Muthu meraung. rupanya, Muthu dah mati digelek lori dekat seminggu lps on the way pi hntr susu getah kt kampung sebelah. Mak Muthu masuk bilik & then bwk buku kecik yg a bit dirty & bagi buku tue kt cikgu nie. cikgu nie ngan tgn terketar2 amik buku tue & bukak pelan2. mak Muthu ckp, nie la buku yg dia pegang masa dia mati. dlm buku tue, Muthu tulis nombor 1 smpai 10 dlm 3 bahasa-bahasa Melayu, bahasa Inggeris & Tamil. Muthu tgh menghafal bnda nie sbb takut cikgu dia marah lagi kalau dia x hafal nombor dlm bahasa Inggeris. 

guess what? i told this story to my grandma and she was so sad. she said something that is quite true. she said this is how kids are being bullied & abused in schools back then. budak2 mmg la payah nk blajar something new. patutnya cikgu kena sabar skit. tambah2 plak budak skolah Tamil, diorang x dpt education on English. by right teachers should start from scratch, start dari Malay then slowly ckp bahasa Inggeris. never raise ur hands against a kid, diorang tau apa...sedih kan bilatgok budak2 kena mcm tue? huhuhu...mata i plak yg berair skrg...huhuuhu... 

a post for me.

well, today ema rasa tramat la jahil. dunno why, but seems like everybody's changing..or maybe CHANGED, except me! ema sorang ja mcm still like that, x berubah langsung. i'm still me, still wearing the clothes that are in my wardrobe, cuma sometimes i hesitate to wear them & place them in a section where i'll wear them at home. but, i'm wearing shawl now, though i'm wearing them with a tudung syria inside as my inner, i still feel i'm far from where i should be. seems like most of my friends & some of my relatives are wearing tudung labuh. i felt intimidated coz my friends are so much better than me. i don't wanna be judged and labelled, 'the bad girl' becoz of my image, but here we are! haha...

i admit, i still adore those cute dresses kt kedai, coz the fabric & the colour is so beautiful. sometimes, i wonder why i feel that way. is it ok to feel that way? but i'm actually browsing through some dresses to pair with jeans, maybe will wear it in the future. it seems like a nice combo---knee-length dresses & jeans. right? hahaa.... ^_^

and also, when it comes to entertainment, i update myself with everything. i listen to the gossips, whether it's local or international artists. i check out the latest trends, from walking in the park to shopping in the malls. just checking on what's cool & what's not. it's kindda fun actually. entering a shop & then picking up something that's nice & checking urself in the mirror with it held in front of you! hahaha...see? when will i ever change?

hipokrit

kita selalu akn nmpk kesalahan org lain, kita xkn nmpk kesalahan kita. itu lumrah kehidupan. sbb tue, org dulu2 ada sebut pepatah, 'kuman di seberang laut nampak, gajah di depan mata x nmpk'. so, here we are again, ckp psl hipokrit. ema agree, sblm nie ema penah hipokrit gak, x nak terima kenyataan. byk kali pun. even sometimes now, ema akn tutup sblh mata, and pretend whatever i hear is not true. contohnya mcm, when i heard Lady Gaga is an iluminiat, ema x leh terima kenyataan, sbb ema sgt suka kt dia. tmbh2 lagi kt lagu, 'Paparazzi'. rupanya, bila lagu nie di'reverse'kan, it sounds like Gaga is worshiping Lucifer above. agak terkejut pada awalnya,but then i started to delete all of her songs, & listen carefully to every song ever since.

sama gak dlm kes nie, bila bnda tue kena pada smething @ someone yg kita syg, atau look up to, kita akn rasa agk susah nk terima. i didn't expect anything from anyone pun, what i intended to do was spread the news. rupanya, ada org terasa. dia rasa mcm ema tgh con the industry, just because she loves the industry. salah ka kalau what i was telling & spreading was true? bukannya ema nk bgtau everybody to go against the industry or go against anybody. ema punya niat is so that people blh bukak mata & realize yg ada something evil somewhere...everywhere! niat org yg buat something, kalau jahat, it will affect us as well. silap2 kita pun jadi sesat. nauzubillah! 

org tue naik angin gila smpai i made the decision to stop telling @ spreading news to anybody. biarlah blog nie tmpt utk ema sebarkan bnda yg patut. sapa nk baca, bacalah...but then, the truth is still out there. no matter how we wanna deny it, kalau bnda tue salah, ia tetap salah kan? 

novelis: male vs female

ari nie tergerak hati nk ckp psl novelis tempatan kita. sbb kalau nk support novelis international mmg agak susah, sbb bagai menegakkan benang yg basah. i fought bout this before & i lost the battle, for at that time i was young & had not yet discover psl novelis tempatan & how diorang tulis buku. get this kay, when i'm talking bout novelis tempatan, i'm talking bout novelis Melayu.


so, i borrowed a few novels & read them all once upon a time. growing up reading Enid Blyton & Sweet Valley, i was very comfy in my childhood zone. i love reading these books over & over again. i even borrowed some to people. but then, people seem to lose interest in these books. when i was in middle school, most of my friends bury themselves in Malay novels. then, i read them. back then i read novels written by females. story line setiap buku lbih kurang sama, bt then disebabkan nama watak dlm novel tue sgt la sedap didengar, kwn2 pun baca la, smbil meng'imagine' ke'handsome'man laki tue. hmm...masa tue ema baca dgn penuh x berperasaan. then, makin lama ema baca novel, makin ema tersedar something, tapi ku diam sahaja.


kalau u guys perasan la kan, 'kebanyakan' novelis perempuan tempatan bertudung. but then dlm novel tue sndiri, dia mndedahkan aurat watak perempuan. dia akn describe the hair, the body & stuff. i dunno la kalau bnda nie dosa atau x, but i just don't feel right about it. to me, as a person yg tutup aurat, u x leh reveal the girl's aurat, even though it's just a watak in a novel. but that's just my opinion la kan?


next is the fact yg 'kebanyakan' jln cerita novel yg ema baca ialah psl kawen kontrak. kalau kawen kontrak kan, logically speaking, mana blh kita bukak aurat kita dpn suami kontrak kita? sbb kita tau the relationship will be temporary ja. by right, kita x blh bukak tudung ngan 'laki' kita kan? but then dlm novel2 yg ema baca, the girl akn bukak tudung in front of the 'suami'. mcm pelik plak. coz, that's totally unacceptable-in my opinion! i'm sorry but i have stress out that these are my opinion ja, sbb ramai think that i have a weird thinking sbb pikir psl bnda yg agk extraordinary. i think bout stuff u guys don't think about-sometimes la..hihihi...


next, bila novelis kita describe stuff like touching hand @ hugging, and sometimes, even kissing in the novel, i felt it's totally unnecessary in the novel. even though some might argue that it's totally okay, sbb bnda tue jadi between a husband & wife, i feel that bnda2 nie yg buat kita dosa. by right, bnda2 ne very intimate kan? perlu ka nk describe how the guy touches the girl, how he kisses her & stuff like that? will it affect the story line kalau these 'descriptions' were deleted? x kan? i realized that some people avoid reading English novels sbb...1)x fhm english & 2)x suka 'dirty' scenes dlm novels. tapi kalau 'dirty' scenes dlm novel Melayu, lyn pulak? x pelik ka? hmm...pikir2 la ek?


then, when i was older, i read my first novel written by a male. he wrote the novel with such passion, everu word is perfect & simple. x dak ayat bunga2 sgt, biasa ja...for a person yg x fhm sgt bahasa puitis mcm i, bahasa yg dia guna nie mudah difahami la. stp novel mesti ada watak female kan? sama ngan novel nie. but then novelis nie x describe byk psl watak female nie. x describe psl rambut, make-up & dressing, walaupun watak pompuan dlm novel dia nie pompuan tue x pakai tudung. seriously, i respected this guy. sbb he realized dia x yah nk exaggerate psl touch2, hugs & kisses. dlm novel nie, x dak pun any scene yg da guy would touch the girl or anything like that. it was so much fun reading the book, smpai i felt i should change myself & choosing only penulis novel lelaki shaja. that's what i've been doing for the past few months, & i get very excited in reading a novel now.


ema nk tekankan kt sini yg ema x boikot anybody, nor ema sebut @ tuding jari kt sapa2. ema just ckp apa yg ema rasa betul & perlu diperbetul. t's all in my opinion. i did this on my own will. hahaha...sounds funny kan?

COVER?

Cover apa nie? Cover girl magazine? Nope. Nt interested in talking bout cover girl magazines, sbb dioran obviously very pretty, beautiful, educated & knows everything & anything bout make-up and how to dress, blah3. sikit ja nk ckp psl cover iaitu cover diri ngan baik.

okay, ema pun dah penat nk share psl how to cover yourself ngan baik & sempurna. coz, ema siap bagi cara2 lagi dlm post2 yg awal. but then now, ema bar perasan yg some of us suka sgt nk pakai selendang kan? tapi selendang tue plak ada 2 mslh. satu mslh dia ialah dia pendek & one more thing is that it's jarang. psl pendek tue, u guys msti dah tau kot kod2 etika nk pakai tudng ikut cara yg diberitahu dlm Islam sndiri. but the jarang part, i found a solution! (aiseh! rasa mcm Einstein plak!'i found a solution! hahaha....) okay, u guys can choose to wear tudung syria, choose a dark colour, most likely black & then wear it with the selendang. with this, ur protecting ur neck from evil eyes! wahh...evil eyes tuhh...hahaha..

da thing is, i tried wearing it & it feels awesome. so to those yg nk try, silalah try ya...

beware

ema tadi bukak channel Astro Hitz, and nmpk la band SHINee punya video clip lagu apa x tau. but then ema sgt la disappointed sbb diorang punya muka sgt la pondan-ish now. huhuu....tapi lps lagu tue habis, keluar la tajuk lagu tue kan. tgok2 tajuk lagu tue 'Lucifer'. tu dia! to those yg x tau, Lucifer is a Satan. but then now, diorang ckp Lucifer bukn syaitan atas sbb2 tertentu la. but then kalau search image kt Google psl Lucifer, mmg byk gila gmbr2 yg agak menakutkan. siap ada org buat movie & tulis buku psl Lucifer. 

so, the thing is, kita kena a bit aware psl what people are doing la kan? this thing dah spread smpai ke mana pun kita x tau. but ada ura2 yg ckp fhman nie dah smpai ke Malaysia pun. tapi kita x tau sapa yg amalkan & sapa yg sebarkan. mmg menakutkan, but this is the world. the EVIL part tgh take over the GOOD part. obviously yg GOOD tue termasuk agama Islam. but get this, even agama Kristian pun tgh perbetulkn akidah umat dia, sbb ramai sgt yg terpesong & masuk fahaman pelik bin ajaib nie, iaiatu fahama Iluminiati @ Free Masonry @ Satanism. ramai yg claim these three things are different, but ema sblm nie ada gak pi tgok2, Google2, bukak bnda nie & itu, nmpknya semua nie berkaitan. x tau la Tuhan diorang sapa & how diorang sembahyang semua, sbb itu sgt la confidential. sgt susah utk kita fhm pun. pening kepala!

actually, dulu kita belajar kan dlm subjek Pendidikan Islam, seseorg tue perlu ada agama, baru la hidup dia ada hala tuju, ada matlamat, then dia xkn sesat semua. walaupun agama Islam is the best choice out of the rest, don't you think being an ateis is the worst case ever? well, at least that's what i think. so, get this kay? most of Koreans are ateis, diorang x beragama. sbb tue penah x tgok dlm drama Korea, diorang smbhyg? x kan? plg x pun mesti ada memorial service. iaitu sembah nenek moyang. then, x dak apa2 dah. kan? hehehe...

okay, ema x nk mulakan perang Korea bermula di sini antara kita. korang pikir2 la kan? so, just beware of everything yg ada kt luar tue, kita mungkin ter'influence'. dan akibat dia sgtla buruk, silap2 kita pun jadi murtad. nauzibillah.