as confused as ever

are you expecting something from me?

or are you just being ignorant?

i'm sorry but i'm not like you.

i can't just PRETEND you are not there

i can't just PRETEND i didn't hear you

i can't just PRETEND to not wanna see your face

i can't PRETEND to walk away from you 

without feeling ashamed and guilty

all this while, i've been blaming myself for all the bad things that happened to people around me

i would always think about the What If's when things went wrong

i would always wanna try to mend the broken hearts

i would always wanna try to make everyone around me happy

that's just me, being me.

this whole thing has been one whole disturbing situation and i don't even know why.

i'm just as confused as ever.

i'm recalling back the moments we have, tracing back time

thinking what have i done wrong.

maybe i did something wrong, and you are punishing me

but get this, Lady.

you're the one losing in this battle.

and i ain't backing down.