i love you just the way you are, Muslimah

Damn, I miss it.

The time when you looked so beautiful.

When, the cover you wear was long enough.

When,your words were carefully spoken.

When, your dress was so modest.

When, you looked so shy around men,

while in the real arena you were such a ferocious lioness, a real mujahidah.

I love that time, I love you just the way you are.

Damn, i miss it,

When you are not trying to look beautiful,you are.

When you quickly put your cover down when the winds blew it hard.

When you take another route just to avoid the opposite group.

I miss to see that calm sweet face.

I miss it when your face saddened by the reminders of God.

And I love you just the way you are.

Damn, I miss it.

When I tried to steal a look at your face, I see tears rolling out with your hands up,praying.

When you deviate the gorgeous grey eyes away the moment  yours met mine.

When you take no single glance at me when we pass by each other.

I love the way you talk to me, such composure and grace.

I love when your heart was so fragile to the Holy Words.

I love that time,I love you just the way you are.

But now,I don’t know what I am feeling.

The love is starting to fade, or what?

 Jealous? 

Disappointment? 

Hope?  

I don’t know.

It hurts me a lot, it’s silently killing me inside.

Every single time I saw you in that apparel.

Every single time I saw you mingle freely without boundaries with the opposites.

Every single moment I saw that words coming from your precious lips.

Please,this is not the girl who I’d known before.

But still, remnants of my love are still there,I’m sure.

I really want you to be my company in this perilous journey.

I really want you to be at my side,sharing love and care.

I really want you to be the mother of my children.

I really want you to be my guidance to His Love.

Even death cannot do us apart, because we will reunited in God’s Glorious Gardens.

But girl,please. I really love you just the way you are at that time.

The time when you looked so beautiful.

When I saw you at that time,

There’s not a thing that I would change,

Cause’ you are amazing,

Just the way you are.

The way of a Muslimah.

~courtesy of http://tajdidweneed.blogspot.com~

P/S: ema sgt tersentuh mmbaca poem nie. mata agk berair bila part perempuan tu berubah terus. hati rasa pedih, sbb ema takut ema tergolong dlm kumpulan perempuan mcm tue. ema tahu ema mmg dah tergolong pun dlm kategori tue. tengah amik masa utk berubah sekali lagi, tapi sesungguhnya, perubahan adalah jihad, sgt susah, perlukan kesabaran & keberanian. kesabaran utk diri kita terus berubah, keberanian utk terus-menerus mengambil langkah seterusnya ke arah kebaikan. susah, sgt susah...tapi, akan ada rasa puas, sbb kita tau kita tengah menjadi semakin baik dari hari ke hari. mulakan dari benda yg paling mudah utk kita ubah. ema start dengan pakai stokin. Alhamdulillah, rasa seronok bila pakai stokin. x rasa tension memikirkan the fact yg ada org tgh tgok kaki ema. cubalah sedikit demi sedikit. insya-Allah, mudah-mudahan Allah menerima taubat kita, perubahan kita, jihad kita...aminn...