tonight i wanna cry

sbnrnya, 'tonight i wanna cry' is a song, kalau x silap la. sbb penah tgok dlm Youtube, video tue. hmm, ape2 jelah. but its true yg mlm nie, rasa mcm nk nangis ja. tadi dah nangis 3 kali. hmm, ntah la knapa. i just feel like breaking down & cry. no idea why, i already posted two posts at my blog. dua2 pun a bit emo type.

actually, i just found out why i felt like crying. ema sbnrnya, tgh thn dari marah. sbb tue, ema nangis. it's like, when u hold back ur anger & temper inside of you, you'll start to have the choking feeling. next, akn mula rasa pedih & perit kt nhgian tekak. & then tears start swelling in the eyes. then u cry! Ta-da! that's the sequence. hhahahaa...

just a while ago i thought of calling someone & screaming about what i'm feeling right now. but then who should i call?
#1- bestie? {dia tgh study pre-med. she only has 1 month to prove to herself that she can do it}
#2- ex roomate? (dia tgh happy2 ngan psgn dia. i dont wanna ruin her romantic night}
#3- Mr Smiley? {what can he do? dia hnya mampu mndgr...& he might be laughing coz it's LAME! &    
                           mungkin dia dah tidoq}
#4- Mr Sarcasm? {i don't think i should be calling him. after everything yg dah trjadi between us, wait-
                             anything happened between us ka? hmm...ntahlaa...its too complicated to cerita. anyways,
                             i don't think he's my friend. hmm...}

& then everything mcm makes sense. i need to deal with my own problems. diorang ada diorang punya own life, own family...ema x leh disturb diorang, just becoz i don't feel happy, just becoz i'm sad & moody.
so, here i am.