satu hari di surau USM Kubang Kerian

well, well, well...baca tajuk ja dah tau ema nk ckp psl apa kan? obviously ema nk ckp psl surau lagi hari nie...well, ema pegi surau yesterday utk solat, & ema nmpk bnda2 yg x patut ema nmpk...or at least bnda yg x sepatutnya dibuat dlm masjid @ surau. once ema masuk, dah nmpk satu group formed kt tgh2 surau, crowding people...susah la org nk masuk sembahyang. but then, diorang x kisah pun psl bnda tue. siap ada yg baring2 lagi. hish!!! then, masa org tgh sembahyang, ada gak yg ckp kuat gila, gelak2...mengganggu org lain sembahyang...huhuuhu....sedih tgok diorang nie...mungkin diorang x tau kot...but then, bnda nie smeua kn common sense, or am i the only one yg fikir like this? hmm...

P/S: i'm having trouble running away from reality. he's always around me. tension! rasa mcm x leh nk breathe. hhuhuhuhuu....Allah je yg bagi semangat kt ema utk teruskan hidup skrg nie. the only thing i do so far is just ignore him, pretend i don't even know him...hope that's enough for now...

orientation week

assalamualaikum semua...lama beno rasanya x online...ema baru ja habis orientation week kt USM Kubang Kerian, Kelantan. during the orientation week, abang2 & kakak2 kt sini x delah teruk sgt mcm kt matriks dulu. kitaorg hanya solat Subuh scara berjemaah every day. sbb surau tu jauh gila dari hostels kitaorg. so, rasa mcm a bit free compared to masa kt matriks. then, kakak2 & abang2 kt sini semuanya lawak2. tapi bila diorang marah, mmg ketaq lutut la...tapi one thing, kalau tidur masa ceramh2 atau taklimat2, abang2 kt sini x marah. diorang just tangkap gambar kitaorg tidur ja...hihihihi...

but then, there was once when kitaorg smua kena paksa stay in the dewan until late night. tetiba je abang tu marah2. marah teruk2 plak tu...takut gila...dia suruh smua org yg penah buat salah ngan kakak2 @ abang2 sepanjang orientasi to come out front & beratur. so, then, semua org keluar, filled the whole dewan. then, abang tu went from one person to another & tanya apa kesalahan kitaorg. ada sorang budak tu ckp dia tertidur masa ceramah, abang tu menjerit kt muka dia. 'nape tidur? len kali, bila masuk lecture hall, terus tidur tau? x yah nk belajar!' tension gila!! pastu he called 6-7 people's name to the stage. diorang kena lagi teruk drpd kitaorg.

sorang kakak tu marah sgt smpai di kata now it's the time to denda these students sbb diorang buat kesalahan besar. the lights went off and the senior kat belakang x bg kitaorg buakka handphone or switch on flashlight. ema takut gila, fear for them, in case kakak tu rotan diorang ke...but then all of the sudden, semua org tepuk tangan smbil nyanyi lagu 'Happy Birthday' pening kepala ema. rupanya, it's a prank! hahaha...

nervous

am i supposed to be feeling nervous? i don't know. i have too many bags...and i wonder if all of them are gonna fit in the small closet i'll be given...huhuhuhu...i hope i manage better this time around. i brought almost everything i need. still am afraid if i see a roach or lizard in my room...huhuhuh...not ready to face ants crawling all over my table...
P/S: will i ever GROW up?

saya happy

Alhamdulillah, syukur sangat hari nie dikurniakan pada ema...syukur sgt Allah bagi kesempatan utk jumpa ngan kwn2 tadi...happy bukan sbb blh makan2 & hang out ngan diorang semua. but just knowing that everybody's heart is taken by someone good, and they can also not expose their relationships like many others make me proud. usually people will expose their relationship through facebook & blogs. their friends comment on the pictures they took together, the wild gossips in school & college. nothing at all...only close friends know what's going on...how sweet...
i'm so happy to have friends like this. i'm so motivated to stay as low as possible, to change myself...to be a better person...it doesn't matter who that person is, whether he was in my past or in the present or even in the future. i don't mind...as long as i feel i deserve to have him...till then...it's time for me to keep moving forward, be a better person...

huhuhuh..

to be honest, i was feeling a bit sad because u didn't reply me the eid text i sent you. even though it was just an eid mubarak wish, i hoped u would text me back. however, u didn't. in a way or the other, i was glad u didn't text. because, if you'd text me back, i would ask you where were you, are you happy, how are you feeling, your prep to the university. the conversation will go on and on...
it would have created an environment that would make the both of us feel weird. so...i'm glad you didn't.
P/S: this crazy feeling i'm battling with every day is a hard & silly feeling. however, i'm getting stronger by the day, and i'm sure i'll get over it in no time. i guess this feeling is there becoz i'm doing nothing, but feeling it. i hope it'll go away in no time as i step my foot in USM.