its OVER

i think its OVER

no more YOU & ME

no more sharing DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS

no more TEXTS or CALLS during the night

no more CHATS 

no more COMMENTS

no more NOTHING

you have her now, to comfort you, to hear you, to be there when u need her..

i dunno if she ever said anything to you, or its juz you...

watever it is, i hope you're happy, wherever you are...

i wish you the best in everything you do...

p/s: im juz sad its over

the engagement

so, today is my cousin, kak feezah's engagement day...i went there very early in the morning, at 11.15am..luckily x byk kerja sgt laa...stkt susun kuih tue, ema blh buat laa...then, pi bwh lak...jumpa ngn my teacher jap, sembang2 ngn dia, buang masa jap..then masuk rumah balik...everybody is everywhere, so there i sat in the living room, all alone...huhuhu...ngantuk plak...i called BUDAK BUSUK coz i was bored, & i actually was afraid to tell BUDAK BUSUK where i m coz takut dia dtg cari ema...hihihi...


jemput pengantin laki naik atas, then snap pic skit...watched the adat guna wakil live 4 da 1st time...coz masa abg M.U. tunang, i didnt notice this adat...n then all da mak cik's went into the room where kak feezah was, leaving the abg (pengantin laki) in the living room all by himself...so, i asked the abg if i cud get a shot of him..abg tue dah malu, but then dia x kisah pun...but after i snapped his pic, my grndma sakat me...OMG!! malu kot...abg tue pun dh malu...but then ema cover2 & cpt2 tgkp gmbo hntrn plak...hihihihi...

then everybody keluar dari bilik tue, kasi abg tue yg tgkp gmbo ngn kakak tue..i made my way into the room dgn payahnya...& masa tue lak abg tu nk keluar bilik. i actually asked da abg tu wait 4 a sec, coz i want to snap pics as well...trpksa la dia brdiri tepi kakak tue...hihihi...jahat x ema?? thnks to me, abg M.U. cud snap more pics of them from different angles...hihhhihih....

lps abg tue keluar, dh start adat suap gula...that was the fun part gak coz i was inside the room the whole time, standing under the fan...& then one by one people masuk nk suap gula...& each of them are given a cupcake by kak nor (abg M.U.'s wife) the cupcakes were a beauty, but the ema x tgkp plak pic the cupcakes...dalam bilik tue gak kitaorg sakat puas2 kak feezah & those yg nk suap gula...i dunno how will the recording turn out, coz suma gelak2 & lawak2 kitaorg suma akn masuk dlm tue...mesti gelak bsr bila tgok balik!! aiyo!! malu!!!

lps stay in the room 4 quite a while, abg M.U. insisted on me suap gula kat kak feezah...so, here's the shot...
hahahaha...i know its not that gud, coz x biasa nk suap gula kt org...in fact the spoon x dak gula pun, syarat je...hihihi....


byk lah budak2 kt situ, mcm2 karenah, mcm2 perangai...
budak2, biasalah...but then i cant believe i can put up wif them...mungkin sbb i really like kids kot...dunno lah...


anyways, i wish this couple to last & till death do u guys part...aminn....

i dreamt of you...

it was a heck of a night yesterday... i mean, from 4pm, i was at my cousin's house, helping out coz she'll be engaged today...& it was Kate & William's wedding day...Hoorah!! hahhaha...i helped out by packing some soup, then washed the dishes...then had nothing to do...i sat wif my dad & bro at the living room, watching telly...until everybody came...

one thing im not quite satisfied wif is EVERYBODY shud be doing the work...not juz some of them...but in that house yesterday, most of them were loitering around da house, sitting & chatting...make my head spin wild, coz im tired & sleepy...i mean, i dun have anybody to talk to, & the gals were in da room looking at the hantaran...how long can u look at the hantaran?? aiyo!! in the end, i sat in the living room, wif the boys...it was actually kindda cool joining them, coz they were talking & discussing bout the interviews, courses & job...hmm...
thats actually better than sitting round WATCHING other people talk...hihihi...

so then, i came back, walking all by myself...it was already 7.30pm....felt scary coz im wearing a white blouse with an A-line skirt & wedges...hmm...if anything were to happen, i cant be running that fast...thats y i texted my bestie...but then in the end i came back home, safe & sound..alhamdulillah...had a bad headache...i switched the channels to catch up wif the royal wedding...& i actually had the chance to watch the balcony appearance...they were both very very cute...love them both... i hope they live happily ever after...

okay, so after all those exhaustion, i fell into a very deep sleep...& in the dream, i dreamt of YOU...YOU came to penang...we met in a shopping mall...i was quite shocked with YOU...coz YOU looked totally different...so, up & down the mall we went, without much talk...& for a split second YOU held my hand...i could feel YOU holding my hand..i was shocked myself...but then some part of me didnt want YOU to let go, coz i felt so secure...STUPID, i know...but thats wat i actually felt...i dun remember if YOU actually let go or YOU kept my hand in YOURS...hmmm...wat a dream...
P/S: i thought to text YOU & ask if YOU'RE ok...but then i didnt...

juz a thought

ema dah byk kawan ngn org...byk experiences kwn ngn org...byk benda ema dah lalui ngan org...sometimes, bila jalan2 pun, ema akn nmpk org...ada org yg ema kenal, ada org yg ema x kenal...but then, deep down inside, i wish, i hope these people will change...


ema sedar ema x perfect...ema sedar ema pun salah gak.,..ema sedar sapa ema...ema pijak atas bumi yg nyata, bukan di awang-awangan...ema sedar i come from a normal family background...ema tau...
its juz a thought...a thoufght to all the others out there...byk nk cerita actually...& korang pun dah tau bnda2 nie..ema x mau lah nk bg telinga korang pedih, sakit hati or anything...its juz a thought....


Islam x larang kita brhias diri...
nk pakai baju lawa2, islam ckp OK!
nk pakai make-up, foundation, perfume, islam ckp OK!
nk gayakan tudung, islam ckp OK!
x mo pakai tudung labuh 60 inci @ tudung bulat mcm ustazah, nk pakai selendang, islam ckp OK!


islam x larang kita buat anything...its juz taht kita kena pandai skit bila mai kat bab2 mcm nie...islam x kolot...islam nk kita maju...islam nk umat dia maju...& in my opinion, salah satu cara kita nk tunjuk kita maju is through how we dress up, da way we speak...kalau dulu kita ckp bhsa melayu, skarg kena ckp bhsa inggeris, kita kena bljr bhasa inggeris...kalau dulu naik bas pegi kerja, skrg kena naik kereta pegi kerja...stuff like that...kita ikut peredaran zaman...

TUDUNG
kalau nk pakai tudung tue, MAKE SURE, 1st of all, pakai anak tudung...jgn pakai hairband or pengeras tudung jaa...anak rambut & ekor rambut akn nmpk...& that means kita dah buka aurat kita...next, make sure macam mana pun style tudung tue, bhgian dada kena cover...tahts juz da simple part...also make sure, tudung tue, bhgian blkg dia cover ur back...some people pakai tudung, dunno mcm mana dia lilit, bhgian blkg dia agk singkat. then bila dia tunduk @ shake her head, nmpk bhgian leher dia...so...juz be careful k?? make sure tudung tue tutup at least 1/4 of ur back if u think 1/2 of ur back is too much too ask...
3rdly, kalau blh, try to avoid tudung yg jarang...coz akn nmpk leher...(seriously, & honestly, im trying to perbaiki myself on this...hihihi...see, nobody's perfect...kita kena usaha to be a better person...)

BAJU
kalau nk pakai baju, islam x larang kita pakai baju moden mcm artis dok pakai kt dlm tv & walk on the red carpet...blh je pakai...but kena pandai pilih baju laa..jgn la slh tafsir 'islam bg pakai apa saja'...islam bg pakai, but kita kena pada2...kalau baju sleeveless, thats a bit too much...
1st of all, kita kena fikir samada baju yg kita pakai tue labuh x? but ada option...its like kalau x mo pakai baju labuh, pakai something not tight as ur pants...kalau nk pakai baju labuh, u can match that wif jeans or leggings...sbb, baju labuh tue tutup peha & stuff like that la...
2ndly, make sure the baju x dak getah at the bottom or around the waist, coz that will show up da CURVES! u dun want people to look at ur CURVES...though it wud be kindda cool if people cud see how ur body looks a lot like Rihanna or Beyonce or Katy Perry...you see, in islam, only ur mahram (people who cannot marry, eg: brothers, uncles, father, grandfather) can look at ur curves and ur aurah...STRICTLY NOBODY ELSE! coz u see, rasionally thinking, guys out tehre who dunno u, n then when they see u walking down da road wif this beautiful body, they have this feeling, this UGLY feeling bout u...& there is a high possibility that a crime might happen...rape...thats why, islam prevents all of these...by teaching us Muslims, to take care of ourselves...so, thats it laa...try pilih baju yg x brgetah kt bhgian bawah & kt bhgian perut...
3rdly, try to avoid baju2 yg jarang...cozu'll have to wear inner...itu pun kalau org tue reti nk pakai inner...kalau yg x reti nk pakai inner tu mcm mana?? ni lah mslh dia...so, kalau rasa diri tue x suka inner melekat kt bdn, avoid baju yg jarang...
next, try not to depend on ur inner too much...i used to depend on my inner...hihihi...
wat i mean here is, for example, u bought urself a new sleeveless blouse or a short sleeved shirt, u'd wear it wif an inner kan? coz nk kena tutup aurat...but then, actually, wat ur doing is EXPOSING ur aurat! kita pun tau yg inner tue suka sgt melekat kt body kan? so bila pakai inner tue, kita sdg mnpkkn bentuk tubuh...although kita x nmpkkn bhgian badan (like dada & peha & pinggang), tgn tue is still part of our aurat rite? hmm...dun worry...i have a solution 4 u...coz i've been through this...all u gotta do is get urself a cardigan! habis cerita...but wait, bila nk pilih cardigan pun ada cara dia...teruskan mmbaca & u'll find mcm mana nk pilih da right cardigan...


CARDIGAN
1st, pilih cardigan yg x diperbuat drpd kain denim...sbb u'll feel like sitting in a hot oven...trust me, i've experienced that...try cardigan from soft fabrics...
2nd, go wif dark colours...u dun want the cardigan to reveal ur skin colour...coz thats part of aurat, remember?? try balck or dark blue colours...its cool also...& match lots of different coloured clothing...
3rd, cari cardigan yg sizenya a bit besar...u dun want the cardigan to be small & showing off ur body parts...its act cool to have a big, flowy kindda cardigan...i have one, & people keep giving me compliments when i put on da cardigan & match wif blouses...hmm...easy rite??


so, those are the stuffs yg ema nk kongsi ngn korang suma... its act very easy nk tutup aurat & still look modern & edgy...
coz, i believe, its up to u nk choose ur path...samada nk pakai tudung labuh or da normal tudung...nk pakai baju kurung all da time or jeans & blouse...yg penting & utama, u have to cover ur aurat...ema rasa x salah nk tunjukkan kt org lain, yg kita sbgai umat islam moden dari segi pakaian but still jaga aurat kita ngn baik...people will look up to us tau?? watever yg ema tulis dari ats tadi suma are stuff i've experienced myself...cara ema ubah diri ema ke arah yg lebih baik (i hope...) but i have a long way to go...byk lagi yg ema kena ubah kt diri ema nie...
u juz have to be a bit creative in doing this...u'll see that in no time, u'll come up wif ur own way to be a better muslim...insya-Allah...

Trip around penang...

so, today, woke up at 8.30am, to be exact...then switch on the tv & watched leverage & hot in cleveland at the same time...basically i switch the channels whenever there's an ad..
I HATE ads....hahaha...


so then, i took a bath at 9.30am...coz i'll be hanging out wif my bestie, HUSNA! mandi punya mandi, dah pukul 10 pg...oh, SHIT! ada 1/2 jam ja nk get ready...& i shampooed my hair...which means i need some time to get it dried..i pun wonder around the house, searching 4 some pants to go wif my baju...thats when i realized something! i am so OUT OF SHAPE!! i need to get down & dirty...EXERCISE! aiyo!! x sgka la plak my body can be so out of proportion...


thats why i dun like people say i look thin, coz i know im not...hmmm....so then i keluar pukul 11 pagi...naik motor, all teh way to her house, picked her up & to gurney we went...jalan punya jalan, dok cari tmpt nk park motor...penat dok pusing, then trlepas tmpt nk park motor...aiyo!! tension, dowh...las2, jumpa gak tmpt nk park motor...


then, pusing la gurney...jalan2 la sgt...hus & i were talking bout her problms, we hardly saw anything...all we knew was to walk straight ahead...jalan ja...nmpk elevator, naik...hahhaha...
masuk kedai baju, komen2 skit, then kitaorg keluar balik...hahaha...itulah kitaorg..


then, masuk MPH BOOKSTORE...nk browse buku skit...we ended up sitting on the carpeted floor, looking through cake books, cookies & cupcakes recipes...OMG!!! hahaha....so, not me! i mean, my mum used to do that...not ME! but ntah la...bila ngn kwn nie, lain skit...kalau my mum, she'll be looking at recipes yg low fat, low bla3...hahaha...so, i'll walk off & find my kind of books...


after tgok2 the cakes & cookies, kitaorg plan nk bake a cake at my house tomorrow...tngok lah mcm mana...kalau ada rezeki thats wat we'll do...mum dah approve...yes!!


P/S: tomorrow kena bgun awal, nk jogging skit...coz body dah so OUT OF PROPORTION!!! aiyo!! i hope i can pull off 5 kg in one week...possible kah?? hmm...wat the hell! hahha..

once BITTEN, twice SHY

everything was set that day. my dad & i will go travel to kelantan, kubang kerian to be specific on an aeroplane.. flight pukul 3.30 ptg...so kitaorg kuar rumah pukul 2.20 ptg...but then nk travel pi airport tue sgtlah jauh...
so bila smpai kt kaunter dia, trus dia ckp kaunter dah tutup & ema x leh redeem my tickets...eii! can u imagine how i felt masa tue...rasa nk nangis...but then abh masuk taxi & trus kitaorg rush pegi terminal bas plak...kot2 smpat catch-up bas pegi kota bharu...but then bus hanya available pukul 9 mlm...


abh ema las las suruh uncle taxi tue arrange taxi dari georgetown ke kota bharu trus...dapatlah gak satu taxi...pak cik yg drive tue kwn skampung abh ema...nasib bek...alhamdulillah...so, kitaorg travel 5 jam, smpai kubang kerian pukul 10 mlm...mlm tue ema punya la dok hfl jwpn apa nk bg kt panel...tido pun x lena...


besok nya bgun, siap2, trus masuk kampus USM jalan kaki...dkt sgt ngn motel ema tue...pusing2 kampus dia...then breakfast kt cafe dia...then ada lah procedure dia...bla2...then masuk bilik interview...dekan bhgian pergigian ada kt dpn ema...ema x sdr...main ckp je apa yg patut, apa yg trlints kt kpala otak...hahhaha...


then lps interview, kena buat exam wire bending...wire tue skit punya keras ka...aiyo...nk bending pun susah...benci betul!!! the ada ujian bulat2...once im done, i walked out back to the motel...what a day..
then took a shower & then pack my bag...lps nie nk trus pegi airport...biarlah smpai awl, jgn smpai lmbt...
hahaha...


we arrived at the airport 2 hours before the flight...hahaha, mmg once bitten twice shy...

x puas hati betul laa...

i watched a movie yesterday kt hallmark channel (astro 702). the movie is 'the widow on the hill'. an old movie kot..


cerita dia mcm nie...a lady was left my her husband, pastu she started her life from the bottom...on the day her husband left her, dia jalan2 smpai dia naik bukit yg ada rumah besar...& her dream is to get the house, to stay on the hill...a few years later, dia graduate kt college, jadi nurse. then dpt call drpd hospital, suruh pi rumah ats bukit nie utk check a patient. patient tu plak nk mati dah...she goda da husband & made him go ga-ga over her...then they got married...


& this husband's daughter dah suspect something fishy from the very start...dia sgt benci kt this nurse...but yg ema x puas hati is that this nurse blh pulak cheat on da husband...AIYO!! x suka lah...in the end, she drugged the husband coz husband dia ckp nk ceraikn this nurse...


the husband died immediately, & the daughter filed case kt court. but x tau la mcm mana this nurse got away wif all the harta & the house on the hill...
her motto is, 'i'll get everything that is not mine'...such a game plan!


thats why i hate watching movies...ema x leh tgok movie mcm nie...naik benci!

tribute to sem 2 friends

okay...so this is a tribute to all my classmates in H1P3 A for the 2nd semester at KMK....okay, here we go!

Wan Muhammad Faiz
abg long..hmm...abg long nie sangat nakal act...byk bnda ema dah kena ngn abg long...but then it doesnt matter, coz thats wat we do as friends...dah biasa kena hamput, maki, siap kena angkat jari lagi...hmm...but then bnda tue suma dah lps... juz dun do that to any others gals k? its kindda very bad...i wish u all da best abg long...i've worked wif you a couple of times & think u r a gud person, juz that ema yg kena pksa2 skit & guna kekerasan, bru kerja jalan...but x kisah laa...aslkn keja jln...hihihi...
P/S: debat kita PENANG VS KELANTAN masih belum brakhir k? hahaha..rasanya PENANG dah mng ari tue...

Syariffudin
syarip @ genji...hmm, 1st impression ema kt hg, FUYOH...hebat! hahaha...tgok2 hg jenis yg ska ponteng kelas & kuliah...but then, hg blh thn terror la gak...x masuk kelas & kuliah, but then test suma mrkh tinggi....betul2 hebat la hg...i guess hg bljr dlm bilik kot...nthlah...but then, i had a great experience wif u, doing the fashion research...walaupun, ehem3...hihihi....biarlah...da past is the past...we move on kan?? all the best to u too syarip...


Che Muhammad Ismail
mail...opps, silap! mail c! hahaha...aku x sgka aku akn bond ngn hg begitu cepat...semua,ihsan roomate aku yg bocorkn rhsia psl kenangn hg ngn BIBAH! sjk tue, bukan aku yg sllau kena ngn hg, hg yg asyik kena ngn aku...hahaha....thansk for the BIRTHDAY SONG yg hg nyanyi, walaupun aku yg pksa hg nyanyi...thansk for the birthday wish kt fb...hg kn yg 1st wish aku kt FB? heheheh...
tau x, lps kwn ngn hg, baru aku tau ada krisis antara kelantan & terengganu, kalau x aku pun xkn tau...hg nie sgt baik act, but hg jahat! jahat sgt!! sbb suka perkena budak pompuan yg len..tapi, roomates aku suka ckp hg mmg sgt sgt sgt COMEY! hahhaha...
P/S: x yah la nk wat eye laser k? nanti x comey dah...pakai ja spec mata yg hg dok pakai ni, insya-Allah, hg akn jumpa soulmate hg...hihihi...i wish u all da best mail!

Muhammad Qhusyairi Ilyasak
kucai...hg sbnrnya sgt lwk...u've entertained me wif ur fuunny jokes...hahah...
aku pernah work ngn hg on the Gua Niah's bird's nest...hg sbnrnya sgt lawak masa tue....a very nice guy, sbb x pyh nk push hg sgt bila nk buat kerja time tuh, suma hg buat...hahaha...but then u've changed after UPS..aku x tau kenapa...but then itu up to u sbnrnya...itu life hang...i hope kita akn brjaya sama2...all the best..
P/S: dun let things let you down, aku tau mak hg pressure hg skit kot...juz relax & chill, diorang tue dah tua, kerja diorang risaukn kita jer...juz chill & do ur best k? =)


Nur Fadzliani 
kak fadz...kak fadz sgt comey, sgt baik...suka kt kak fadz...lwk pun lwk....hahaha...& pndai masak...working ngn kak fadz sgt seronok...ema penah work ngn kak fdz utk english-Gua Niah! hahaha...kak fadz mmg seorg yg suka fikir dlm2 b4 making a decision...ema sgt suka itu...hmm, all da best to you, kak fadz...semoga kita berjumpa lagi...

Kak Wanie

ema x ckp byk sgt ngan kak wanie dlm 2 3 bln yg 1st sem 2, x tau sbb apa...hihih...mungkin sbb kak wanie kak xpdt kot...ema nie bukan reti sgt nk ckp ngn org yg LEBIH tua..hihih...but then as kita kena buat keja together, work together here & there, we got along pretty well..at least, thats wat i think...
kak wanie pun pndai masak, very caring & very itelligent...kak wanie pun mcm kak fadz gak, suka pikir dalam2 b4 making any decisions...which is gud...& i hope kak wanie blh score 4 Flat mcm sem 1 dulu...insya-Allah...all da best kak...

Sya-I
sya-i...sgt cool...org yg x kisah psl watever pun...sronok kwn ngn sya-i...1st impression bila tgok sya-i, fuyoh! ngada2 btul budak nie...hihihi...but then lps dah gaul & kwn ngn sya-i, baru ema tau, ohh, sya-i nie sgt cool je orgnya...hahaha...all da best sya-i...

Tan Yin Zhien
hahaha...i knew u since sem 1...i knew becoz of tiang...ur a gud gud friend & companion...i've worked so well wif u...& i wish we cud be great friends in da future...i really like ur commitment in completing ur work...like sleeping 2 hours per day to complete chemistry homeworks? haha, guess wat, no more chemistry for until...who knows? hahaha...im crapping now...all da best tan!


Nur Iliani Shuhada
yani...hahaha...x sgka jumpak ngn budak satu negeri, satu bckground ngn ema...hahaha...sekolah agama la katakan..ema lgsung x expect akn jumpa ngn budak skolah irshad kt situ..seems impossible..but then we tagged along..& it was fun being friends wif u...we were exactly like me...just a bit better...lagi baik drpd ema..hahaha...i wish u all da best utk jadi seorg cikgu kimia...

Syahirah Abdullah
syahirah...baik & alim je...very timid...u need to break open ur shell, girl.. dkt u nanti, lg teruk...kena tahan & kena gaul ngn diorang...mau x mau kena gak...kalau x mmg x leh survive..i hope u wud open up to boys...its ok to be shy & nk jaga batas prgaulan..but still, i think u need to move on n open up to people all around u...kt university nanti, these boys yg akn tolong u kalau ada apa2 jadi...dlm kes ema, byk budak laki tlg ema masa ema tgh matriks, alhamdulilah...
all da best, i hope u will open up...gud luck!




Nurul Nadia
haha, nadia...kita kwn pun ats sebab yg agk x masuk akal...but then, iotulah kita...dua2 pun gila2...seronok kwn ngn hg..tension aku suma hilang...aku hrp aku x ganggu private life hg...especially bila hg mai bilik aku malam tue, where kita siapkn CHEMISTRY PROJECT yg miss fatni kasi tue...da 'france, italy, city of love...bla2...' hahaha, i hope all those craps only brought sparks top our life between da two of u...hahaha...i hope u guys will be forever together despite the distance u guys have to face...all da best, nadia...

Izzatul Najwa
zatul...u are a very confident person to me...the first time i saw u, u were vey quiet, & only hang out wif nadia...then, u hang out wif husna lak...then it was the four of us...hahahahaha...ur also a very organised person...u list down wat u wanna do & u complete it by the time limit u set...i adore & look up to u for that..also a brave person to voice out ur opinion without fear...u can go very far, dear...i hope u do ur best in life...gud luck


Nur Husna
husna...da 1st time aku tgok hg, aku nmpk mcm budak skolah agam, coz of ur appearance. tapi x sgka lak hg mmg betui bdk skolah agama...then masa kt serambi that day, aku dpt tau psl yg len2 tue...hihii...i asked u casually, & u answered truthfully & casually back to me...it was fun getting to know u...u open up to me, which is one of da part yg aku plg hargai dlm relationship kita sbg kawan...satu je nasihat aku, dun get involved if they dun want u to be involved...kalau diorang marah, biaq jaa...nanti bila diorang rasa nk cerita kt kita, diorang akn cerita...we need to be very patient. trust me, i know it all...hahaha
i wish u all da best!


Najwa
najwa...antara org yg 1st ema tegur dlm kelas 1st kita masuk sem 2...ema ingat lagi, waktu tue, ema yg rajin ckp ngn najwa, trying to fit in...sbb rasanya time tue, ema sorang je yg x dak kwn, x dak geng...hihihi...but then as time passes, najwa jadi lonely lak, & x tau nk ckp apa ngn kitaorg suma...i guess thats wat yg buat najwa turn away frm us..ema x tau...anyways, kalau najwa terasa ngn ema slama kita brgelar kwn, ema mintak maaf...ema x sengaja...ema hrp sgt najwa blh maafkn ema...i wish u all da best...

okay, ema nk wish extra 'all da best' kpada nama2 yg trsenarai di bwh nie k??
1-Syarip ngn JANE DOE (jane doe, sbb ema x tau nama kak tue...tapi ema penah nmpk 
  syarip ngn kak tue mkn bakso kt kafe pentadbiran..hihihi)
2-Zatul & KUKURITUK (hahaha...ngan arif...i hope korang bahagia...)
3-Husna & KUKUTIRUK CIPLAK (hahah...kukurituk ciplak sbb ikut zatul..hahaha...ema
  pun dah lupa nama dia pa...sorry...be patient k??)
4-Nadia & FARIS 


nama2 yg trsenarai di ats adlh those yg ema tau in a relationsship...yg lain ema x tau...kalau ada tue, all da best gak kt korang suma...
thank you all my friends...ema hrp suma akn brjaya satu hari nanti...
doakan kejayaan ema sama...

im back!

hah! so now im back to where i belong, PENANG! home sweet home...i was in perlis for 2 nights...
i woke up at 7.00am this morning, ngan muka ngantuk, i wash up, gosok gigi, ate breakfast & then siap2 & then off i went to kangar. coz, there's where the bus station is...
my ticket was scheduled at 9.15 am...ada dlm 45 minutes to waste, so my uncle brought us to the nearest mamak store kt situ, & ate roti canai & a cup of hot MILO. kenyang perut! hihihi...
guess wat, i also brought back my barney which dian gave me...its actually very large, a bit malu masa nk bawak..but, wat the hell? thats my barney...mcmlah korang suma x dak barney! hahaha...
masuk2 ja bus, rasa pening, mcm nk muntah...so i closed my eyes & dozed off...
then bila sdr coz my sis called, i saw my beautiful penang island...
i couldnt take my eyes off it...so beautiful...but it was busy...but who cares? love the busy penang...
hihihi...its been a while since i've seen da sea...hahahah...i sound funny, i know...but thats juz how i felt...da sea has different colours if u look at it carefully...one side its blue, da other side a bit green & then the other end has a tottaly different colour...so calm...
so then i reached the sg nibong bus terminal safely, called my sis & left my stuff at the bench as i went upstairs to check out some available tickets to kota bharu...masa nak naik tangga tue, dah penuh people kt ats asking me if i wud like to kl, johor, kedah...i kept on saying no, no, no...hahaha
then sorang abg nie tnya lak, 'adik nk pegi mana?' hahaha...
all da while i was in da taxi, i was calling up people...my dad, sis, grandma, auntie...fuyoh...byk gila calls...hahaha...mcm org penting...
as i was waiting 4 my bro kt lift, i saw tis fat fat cat...i pun squat down & started patting it on its head..OMG! u shud really feel its fur...so smooth & thick...mesto kucing org jaga, but the diorang dump dia kt my flat...cian dia...dia pun mnja2 skit ngn dia...lying on its belly...hahah...u shud really see...
naik2 umah, i grabbed the remote control...hahaha...

leaving KMK...

my last paper for finals is Chemistry paper 1...alhamdulillah, some of the questions supplied by Miss Fatni, my Chemistry lecturer actually came out! OMG!! it was something unexpected...but then mungkin rezeki kot...sbb tue yg keluar dlm 3-5 questions...

after that, tagged along wif Dian, headed straight to the cubicle, to see Pn Ros, to check out my co-curricular marks....alhamdulillah...not that BAD laa...hihihi....then rushed back to the cafeteria...dian misses her mum so bad....salam2 ngn mak dia, waved hi kt bpk dia, n then bpk dia belanja makn...hahaha...seronok bukan main!! hihihih....

P/S: i know i sound like a kid, but iu cant help myself when people belanja, bukan sllau org nk blnja kita mkn kan??

then, after sembang2, we headed upstairs where i had to clear all of my stuff, ON MY VEY OWN!! owh man! sgt tiring, smpai i had a headache....& btw, i did not cry...dunno why but then no tears came out, but then a bit sad la kot letting my roomates & friends go...huhuhu...

so, by 1 pm, i was all alone, in my room....dunno wat to do...nk menyanyi, mp3 dah mati...kena kuburkan & baca tahlil....haiz....nk join nasy tgok movie, im juz so lazy to go to her room....

so, las2, i texted my friend...nasib baik la dia ada, tmn smentara i cari mood nk tutup mata...but then, closing my eyes doesnt work...so in the end, i went to the toilet, amik air smbhyg...

elok baru angkat takbir, there were a few knocks on the door...pelik gak...bukak2, TA-DA!

my aunt was at the door...she & her daughters tolong angkt my stuff turun bwh to da car...then, bila sampai umah, lps punggah brg2, i got a cute cupcake frm my cousin...the cupcake was vry cute & tasty...Yum-yum!

so, here i'll be until maybe Friday...x nk lama2 kt tmpt org...rindu PENANG!!! huhuuhu....

weird birthday wish...

i was sneezing like crazy yesterday...ntah sapa lah yg rindu kt ema...rindu mmbuak2 plak tue..tissue dah habis, tinggal pocket tissue jer...daif sungguh...hihihi...
called mum & dad pukul 8 mlm, sbb dah x thn ngn bersin non-stop...manja2 ngn diorang kejap...then dad told me bout his business...& then psl wat i'll be doing when i get back 4 my holidays...
so, these are the stuffs i plan to do when i get back...
1- hntr rahman pegi tuition mrs viji on sundays (morning & night)
2- tlg abh wif his business
3- tlg mak buat keja umah
4- hntr rahman pegi skolah
5- exercise...(gotta lose weight man...)
6- hang out wif my fwends...
7- catch up wif all the television series i've been missing out on (Army Wives, here i come...)
8- get my driving license once & for all
9- help sis wif her research
10- manja2 ngan grandma smpai suma cucu2 lain jelez...hahaha
p/s: i know it sounds a bit mengarut, but what the hell? hahaha


so then yesterday, mum told me it was my uncle's birthday...so, i called him up & planned to sing him a birthday song over the phone, like wat i've been doing to all my friends, my roomates, my romates friends...haiz...suma dah dgr suara ema yg tramat merdu nyanyi lagu b'day kt diorang...hahaha...


called him once, but then he didnt pick up, 'maybe dlm meeting kot' i thought..
i was texting him the b'day song & my b'day wish 4 him...& suddenly the phone rang. i picked up, heard his voice, & then...

 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!' 

dgn excitednya i sang the b'day song...& guess wat he said over the phone...'mmm, thank you' i was very disappointed, coz i thought he'd laugh or something...coz based on my experiences so far, stp kali i sing a b'day song to boys, diorang akn gelak...(Teddy bear is a proof, coz he laughed so hard over the phone when i sang him a b'day song...hihih...)

owh, btw, i didnt go 4 the PSPM2 taklimat at dm...hihihi...learned a trick frm SOMEONE...

so while i was resting in my room, trying to get some sleep after a whole day of sneezing...the phone rang again...it was my uncle...this time, he act asked whether it was me...'nie ema kah?' hahaha...i laughed my way as i said 'yes'...isnt it awkward that ur uncle dun even know u...huhuhu...maybe becoz i NEVER called him kot...thn all of a sudden nk calling2...mesti pelik...

thank God, he sounded more warm this time...not that tensed up like the 1st call...haiz...mcm2 betul lah...

i think i learned something. i need to be more mature...more mature in wishing i guess...hmm, how to be mature? leceh tau x nk jadi mature? x blh mnja2 ngn ur grandma & parents...x leh manja2 ngn bdk2 kecik, x leh main2 ngan bdk kecik...x leh comment on something spontaneously (must think before u speak)...kena ubh cara cakap, kena ubah cara jalan, dressing, style...blah blah blah...haiz...

typing it already tires me...wonder how tired i'll be when i become matured! but then my mum told me this, 'maturity will come to you...dun hunt 4 it...dun try to seek it...juz wait, be patient...it'll come to you, when ur ready 4 it'  

& i trust her...so, MATURITY...come when u think i'm ready 4 it k? hahahah... PEACE..

=)

 

pictures wif sem II

so, finally i had the chance to snap pics wif my sem II buddies...however, not all of them were there when we snapped for photos...ade2 je mslh ek? haiz...but then i'm thankful for those who co-operate 4 all these pictures we snapped...

ICT class

the boys in ICT class

so, from the left we have Teddy bear
(ahmad Shafuan), 4 Flat Guy (Ahmad Shafaeez),
Kenji (Sharip), Abg long (Wan Muhd faiz),
Kucai (Qhusyairi)
& Mail C (che Muhd Ismail)

P/S: Shafez always do this to my pics...haiz...wat to do...dah brapa kali ntah i kept reminding him to smile, but...
haiz!! & check out mail's pic...so sweet kan?? hahaha...

my gang i guess...hahaha...something we do juz for fun...its juz that we were the last ones in the lab, & so, why not we all take a shot? betul x? hahaha...from the left is me (ema), tan, shahira & iliani

dinamika class...

dinamika class also...

dinamika class as well...
this time only the boys...
okay, so this time, i had a better shot of 4 flat guy...hahaha...
& also fahmi...(he's the guy standing at the back, most left, wif glasses)
that's our lecturer, Mr Joo Kee
a Chinese guy, but speaks english so fluently...






i hope we will all remain friends forever...aminn!

outing terakhir...

sedihnya bila nk outing kali nie..sedih sbb its our last outing...huhuhu...so, kitaorg berlima suma bgun pg, get ready & pukul 10.30 pg, redah hujan wif only 2 umbrellas...hahaha...mmg basah la kitaorg...kalau bukan diri yg kena hujan, beg kitaorg kena hujan..

smpai2 situ, kitaorg split into 3 groups..meera & bibah pegi masuk c-mart dulu, dian & farhana lak pegi mana ntah...i went upstairs, cari topup 4 my sis & myself...lps tue baru masuk c-mart, but then on my own, in my own world...mp3 trsyg menemani ema menyusur rak2 yg penuh ngn mknn & brg2...hahaha.. 

my last shopping at c-mart

x smpai a few minutes, i was done wif my shopping...then, byr 4 my stuff, waited 4 dian & farhana...then the three of us tunggu kt meera & bibah....then i wanted to get myself a small umbrella, so, tagged along wif farhana & went upstairs...

instead of getting myself an umbrella, i bought myself a wrist watch...n then nmpk ada tmpt bowling kt c-mart, kitaorg pun lari2 ke situ, instant pose & then snap2...hahhaa....lwk tau x?? hahaha...sweetest memory ngn frhana, my dearest neighbour! love ya!

posing lagi! snap3!

then bila smpai kmk, kitaorg nk pose lagi...so, stopped jap kt tis small compound, betul2 kt area dpn...& while i was placing all my stuff on the bench, guess who i saw? hahahaha...HER! out of a million faces i could see, why her? i act promised i wouldnt let any of these crap to mess up my head, but then it seems like all of these crap are attached to me...huhuhuh...nasib la katakan...

no matter wat happen, i will depend on myself, getting trough all these pain & hurt & confusion...nothing will stop me frm reaching my goals! not even the most hurtful rumour...i can get through this, once & for all! insya-Allah!

P/S: wanna share wif u something...how i wish i found my Mr Right...i could lean on him if i needed someone...a tall, smart guy, haiz...

Mr Right

B-I-G Project!




so, we had our big project...finally! yay!! we went to Pn Azliawaty's house in the campus at around 6 to 6.30 pm & started our big project. i started peeling the potatoes coz that's all i had to prepare...mashed potatoes! haha...sounds easy huh?



so, we got started! iliani & sha-i cut the vegetables, i peeled the potatoes, najwa cleaned the chicken, kak fadz was preparing her jelly custard pudding. kak wanie cleaned the fish...nadia helped in here & there, tan wasnt there yet & the boys were nowhere in the house..hahaha....


so, we were working really hard in the kitchen, everybody was doing something ( those yg tgn x kotor, snap pics!) it was a roller-coaster ride but we enjoyed ourselves! if u think mashed potatoes are easy to prepare, think again! i had to boil the potatoes (easy), make sure they are all tender (indda hard!) & then mashing it! (this is the hardest part!) none of us had prepared mashed potatoes before, so everybody was counting on me...the pressure was really on me coz the teacher was really craving 4 it! so, nadia, tan & i worked on it, taking turns in mashing the potatoes. turned out to be excellent! oh yeah, we ROCK! hahaha..

potatoes ats stove



teddy bear prepared the drinks last night. he's really something u know? i mean, none of my classmates did anything but hanging out in front of the tv, till the very last minute...hahaha...