a post for me.

well, today ema rasa tramat la jahil. dunno why, but seems like everybody's changing..or maybe CHANGED, except me! ema sorang ja mcm still like that, x berubah langsung. i'm still me, still wearing the clothes that are in my wardrobe, cuma sometimes i hesitate to wear them & place them in a section where i'll wear them at home. but, i'm wearing shawl now, though i'm wearing them with a tudung syria inside as my inner, i still feel i'm far from where i should be. seems like most of my friends & some of my relatives are wearing tudung labuh. i felt intimidated coz my friends are so much better than me. i don't wanna be judged and labelled, 'the bad girl' becoz of my image, but here we are! haha...

i admit, i still adore those cute dresses kt kedai, coz the fabric & the colour is so beautiful. sometimes, i wonder why i feel that way. is it ok to feel that way? but i'm actually browsing through some dresses to pair with jeans, maybe will wear it in the future. it seems like a nice combo---knee-length dresses & jeans. right? hahaa.... ^_^

and also, when it comes to entertainment, i update myself with everything. i listen to the gossips, whether it's local or international artists. i check out the latest trends, from walking in the park to shopping in the malls. just checking on what's cool & what's not. it's kindda fun actually. entering a shop & then picking up something that's nice & checking urself in the mirror with it held in front of you! hahaha...see? when will i ever change?

hipokrit

kita selalu akn nmpk kesalahan org lain, kita xkn nmpk kesalahan kita. itu lumrah kehidupan. sbb tue, org dulu2 ada sebut pepatah, 'kuman di seberang laut nampak, gajah di depan mata x nmpk'. so, here we are again, ckp psl hipokrit. ema agree, sblm nie ema penah hipokrit gak, x nak terima kenyataan. byk kali pun. even sometimes now, ema akn tutup sblh mata, and pretend whatever i hear is not true. contohnya mcm, when i heard Lady Gaga is an iluminiat, ema x leh terima kenyataan, sbb ema sgt suka kt dia. tmbh2 lagi kt lagu, 'Paparazzi'. rupanya, bila lagu nie di'reverse'kan, it sounds like Gaga is worshiping Lucifer above. agak terkejut pada awalnya,but then i started to delete all of her songs, & listen carefully to every song ever since.

sama gak dlm kes nie, bila bnda tue kena pada smething @ someone yg kita syg, atau look up to, kita akn rasa agk susah nk terima. i didn't expect anything from anyone pun, what i intended to do was spread the news. rupanya, ada org terasa. dia rasa mcm ema tgh con the industry, just because she loves the industry. salah ka kalau what i was telling & spreading was true? bukannya ema nk bgtau everybody to go against the industry or go against anybody. ema punya niat is so that people blh bukak mata & realize yg ada something evil somewhere...everywhere! niat org yg buat something, kalau jahat, it will affect us as well. silap2 kita pun jadi sesat. nauzubillah! 

org tue naik angin gila smpai i made the decision to stop telling @ spreading news to anybody. biarlah blog nie tmpt utk ema sebarkan bnda yg patut. sapa nk baca, bacalah...but then, the truth is still out there. no matter how we wanna deny it, kalau bnda tue salah, ia tetap salah kan? 

novelis: male vs female

ari nie tergerak hati nk ckp psl novelis tempatan kita. sbb kalau nk support novelis international mmg agak susah, sbb bagai menegakkan benang yg basah. i fought bout this before & i lost the battle, for at that time i was young & had not yet discover psl novelis tempatan & how diorang tulis buku. get this kay, when i'm talking bout novelis tempatan, i'm talking bout novelis Melayu.


so, i borrowed a few novels & read them all once upon a time. growing up reading Enid Blyton & Sweet Valley, i was very comfy in my childhood zone. i love reading these books over & over again. i even borrowed some to people. but then, people seem to lose interest in these books. when i was in middle school, most of my friends bury themselves in Malay novels. then, i read them. back then i read novels written by females. story line setiap buku lbih kurang sama, bt then disebabkan nama watak dlm novel tue sgt la sedap didengar, kwn2 pun baca la, smbil meng'imagine' ke'handsome'man laki tue. hmm...masa tue ema baca dgn penuh x berperasaan. then, makin lama ema baca novel, makin ema tersedar something, tapi ku diam sahaja.


kalau u guys perasan la kan, 'kebanyakan' novelis perempuan tempatan bertudung. but then dlm novel tue sndiri, dia mndedahkan aurat watak perempuan. dia akn describe the hair, the body & stuff. i dunno la kalau bnda nie dosa atau x, but i just don't feel right about it. to me, as a person yg tutup aurat, u x leh reveal the girl's aurat, even though it's just a watak in a novel. but that's just my opinion la kan?


next is the fact yg 'kebanyakan' jln cerita novel yg ema baca ialah psl kawen kontrak. kalau kawen kontrak kan, logically speaking, mana blh kita bukak aurat kita dpn suami kontrak kita? sbb kita tau the relationship will be temporary ja. by right, kita x blh bukak tudung ngan 'laki' kita kan? but then dlm novel2 yg ema baca, the girl akn bukak tudung in front of the 'suami'. mcm pelik plak. coz, that's totally unacceptable-in my opinion! i'm sorry but i have stress out that these are my opinion ja, sbb ramai think that i have a weird thinking sbb pikir psl bnda yg agk extraordinary. i think bout stuff u guys don't think about-sometimes la..hihihi...


next, bila novelis kita describe stuff like touching hand @ hugging, and sometimes, even kissing in the novel, i felt it's totally unnecessary in the novel. even though some might argue that it's totally okay, sbb bnda tue jadi between a husband & wife, i feel that bnda2 nie yg buat kita dosa. by right, bnda2 ne very intimate kan? perlu ka nk describe how the guy touches the girl, how he kisses her & stuff like that? will it affect the story line kalau these 'descriptions' were deleted? x kan? i realized that some people avoid reading English novels sbb...1)x fhm english & 2)x suka 'dirty' scenes dlm novels. tapi kalau 'dirty' scenes dlm novel Melayu, lyn pulak? x pelik ka? hmm...pikir2 la ek?


then, when i was older, i read my first novel written by a male. he wrote the novel with such passion, everu word is perfect & simple. x dak ayat bunga2 sgt, biasa ja...for a person yg x fhm sgt bahasa puitis mcm i, bahasa yg dia guna nie mudah difahami la. stp novel mesti ada watak female kan? sama ngan novel nie. but then novelis nie x describe byk psl watak female nie. x describe psl rambut, make-up & dressing, walaupun watak pompuan dlm novel dia nie pompuan tue x pakai tudung. seriously, i respected this guy. sbb he realized dia x yah nk exaggerate psl touch2, hugs & kisses. dlm novel nie, x dak pun any scene yg da guy would touch the girl or anything like that. it was so much fun reading the book, smpai i felt i should change myself & choosing only penulis novel lelaki shaja. that's what i've been doing for the past few months, & i get very excited in reading a novel now.


ema nk tekankan kt sini yg ema x boikot anybody, nor ema sebut @ tuding jari kt sapa2. ema just ckp apa yg ema rasa betul & perlu diperbetul. t's all in my opinion. i did this on my own will. hahaha...sounds funny kan?

COVER?

Cover apa nie? Cover girl magazine? Nope. Nt interested in talking bout cover girl magazines, sbb dioran obviously very pretty, beautiful, educated & knows everything & anything bout make-up and how to dress, blah3. sikit ja nk ckp psl cover iaitu cover diri ngan baik.

okay, ema pun dah penat nk share psl how to cover yourself ngan baik & sempurna. coz, ema siap bagi cara2 lagi dlm post2 yg awal. but then now, ema bar perasan yg some of us suka sgt nk pakai selendang kan? tapi selendang tue plak ada 2 mslh. satu mslh dia ialah dia pendek & one more thing is that it's jarang. psl pendek tue, u guys msti dah tau kot kod2 etika nk pakai tudng ikut cara yg diberitahu dlm Islam sndiri. but the jarang part, i found a solution! (aiseh! rasa mcm Einstein plak!'i found a solution! hahaha....) okay, u guys can choose to wear tudung syria, choose a dark colour, most likely black & then wear it with the selendang. with this, ur protecting ur neck from evil eyes! wahh...evil eyes tuhh...hahaha..

da thing is, i tried wearing it & it feels awesome. so to those yg nk try, silalah try ya...

beware

ema tadi bukak channel Astro Hitz, and nmpk la band SHINee punya video clip lagu apa x tau. but then ema sgt la disappointed sbb diorang punya muka sgt la pondan-ish now. huhuu....tapi lps lagu tue habis, keluar la tajuk lagu tue kan. tgok2 tajuk lagu tue 'Lucifer'. tu dia! to those yg x tau, Lucifer is a Satan. but then now, diorang ckp Lucifer bukn syaitan atas sbb2 tertentu la. but then kalau search image kt Google psl Lucifer, mmg byk gila gmbr2 yg agak menakutkan. siap ada org buat movie & tulis buku psl Lucifer. 

so, the thing is, kita kena a bit aware psl what people are doing la kan? this thing dah spread smpai ke mana pun kita x tau. but ada ura2 yg ckp fhman nie dah smpai ke Malaysia pun. tapi kita x tau sapa yg amalkan & sapa yg sebarkan. mmg menakutkan, but this is the world. the EVIL part tgh take over the GOOD part. obviously yg GOOD tue termasuk agama Islam. but get this, even agama Kristian pun tgh perbetulkn akidah umat dia, sbb ramai sgt yg terpesong & masuk fahaman pelik bin ajaib nie, iaiatu fahama Iluminiati @ Free Masonry @ Satanism. ramai yg claim these three things are different, but ema sblm nie ada gak pi tgok2, Google2, bukak bnda nie & itu, nmpknya semua nie berkaitan. x tau la Tuhan diorang sapa & how diorang sembahyang semua, sbb itu sgt la confidential. sgt susah utk kita fhm pun. pening kepala!

actually, dulu kita belajar kan dlm subjek Pendidikan Islam, seseorg tue perlu ada agama, baru la hidup dia ada hala tuju, ada matlamat, then dia xkn sesat semua. walaupun agama Islam is the best choice out of the rest, don't you think being an ateis is the worst case ever? well, at least that's what i think. so, get this kay? most of Koreans are ateis, diorang x beragama. sbb tue penah x tgok dlm drama Korea, diorang smbhyg? x kan? plg x pun mesti ada memorial service. iaitu sembah nenek moyang. then, x dak apa2 dah. kan? hehehe...

okay, ema x nk mulakan perang Korea bermula di sini antara kita. korang pikir2 la kan? so, just beware of everything yg ada kt luar tue, kita mungkin ter'influence'. dan akibat dia sgtla buruk, silap2 kita pun jadi murtad. nauzibillah.