5-letter-word

sorry is a 5-letter word. S-O-R-R-Y. as simple as that. do  expect my apology be accepted by you? honestly, i don't think so. after what i said to you, i am pretty sure you won't. i know i crossed the line this time around. i was never a teacher's pet. i always make teachers angry. that's just what i always end up with. no matter how i try, that's practically how my teacher-student relationship always ended. 
but after meeting you, known as one of the strictest Chemistry lecturer in matriculation, 
i was pretty sure i will never have a good bond with you. caught sleeping in class, poor understanding of a particular topic in lecture halls, barely completing the work you gave just adds to the HATE EMA list. but towards the end of the sem, after we faced our exams, and i turned to you. i talked to you, as if you were a sister. how i complained the questions were hard and tough, how i couldn't answer them. and you were just there, sitting and smiling. you sacrificed your work at that time, listening to me, a foolish girl who wants nothing but some support from you, after a i answered terribly. *i'm pretty bad in Chemistry by the way* 
to this day, i could not forget how you went through all of the questions with me. you didn't scream or shout or showed how disappointed you were in me, unable to answer the questions. you kept on saying, "insyaAllah, boleh la tu. teruskan berdoa, Amalina. Saya yakin kamu boleh" and it made me feel a whole lot better. thank you, miss.
i know what i said could not be taken back. time can never be reversed. and how i regret what i said, and how i said it to you. how bad i feel right now, only He knows. sorry is the only thing i can say now. and again, i'm sorry. i won't stop saying sorry. because i know i was wrong. i should've said it in such way you won't get hurt. but what am i to do now, things happened, and i will try to change myself, especially when it comes to communication with people. 
things happen for a reason. mungkin Allah jadikan miss sebagai pengantara untuk menegur ema, dan mungkin ini adalah salah satu ujian yang Dia turunkan buat ema. Wallahua'lam. ema amat berharap miss dapat maafkan saya, saya mintak maaf sekali lagi. dengan setulus hati, ema mintak maaf. i don't know how many apologies will it take to even make me feel a little bit better. i will never feel better, until you accept my apology. even after that, i don't think i'll be able to face you anymore...i'm sorry.