paint!

hari nie bgun awal sgt, dlm pukul 8 pg dah bgun, smpai mak menjerit2 suruh bgun! haiz..lps tue, terus start cat rumah. ema start ngan dinding living room & then beralih ke siling, yg sgt la susah. bila jam masuk pukul 11.30 mcm tue, mak ema suruh ema terus cat siling hall smpai habis. ema pun pnjt la tangga & then cat pakai roller. sgt la susah! but then sbb kesian kt mak yg puasa, ema buat gak smpai habis satu siling ema cat. kakak ema blh ja buat, but then dia gayat, so semua kerja mengecat siling hall jadi a bit mcm caca marba, patchy2 & so ema yg buat bg a little perfect la kot. hihihihi...bila berdiri kt ats tue, & cat, semua nmpk sgt la cantik, lps dah kering, barulah nmpk betapa cacatnya kitaorg buat 'art'! hahaha...tapi nasib baik nie cuma paint putih, sbb nk cover cat hijau sblm nie. isnin nanti baru cat purple. hmm...mak & kaka dah ckp awal2, ema cat siling shja! haiz...

tapi yg lawaknya, bila ema cat siling tue, mak ema bg ja ema dgr mp3 smbil cat & biarpun ema nyanyi masa cat, mak ema x kisah. & then bila ema mintak adik ema psg radio, mak x kisah pun. sbbnya, ema tgh buat kerja & cat siling! hahaahaha....tapi mak x kisah pun, mak ckp, asalkan ema siapkan cat siling smpai habis, mak x kisah ema buat apa pun! so, melalak la ema pg tadi, smpai hujan lebat! hihihihi....

nmpknya, diam itu adlh satu cara utk ema thn marah, sbb itulah ema mnghadapi mslh emotional smlm. but then pg tadi, when i let things go the way they wanted it to be, diorang turn to me balik. so, i think i have to work on my anger management, kena lebihkn diam dari bercakap, bila ema marah @ x puas hati trhdp something. hmm...a lesson to be learned.

not referring her as a cat or anything,
but this is how she would stare at me from far.

satu lagi, ema x fhm kenapa ema mimpi 'you' ptg tadi. its like 'you' ajak ema keluar to a party yg 'she' kindda organized or attended. at that moment i felt like we were friends & i thought to myself, 'will i ever get the chance to snap a pic of us?' & then it hits me, mana boleh, sbbnya, you belong to her! even in my dream, i could feel her cold stare at me while she's sippping her drink slowly. haiz...why? is this a sign?

by the way, i've always wanted to shout & sing this to ur face, but i can't coz there's nothing between us now. yesterday, i thought of all the things we said to one another, all the things i did to you. stuff like, waking you up, covering u up when u didn't show up to mentor mentee, how i gave u advice on her, the confession...it doesn't mean anything now, does it? one more thing that i thought about yesterday was how stupid i was to call you at 2.30 am & cried to you becoz i can't sleep. and we talked for almost an hour, coz i was crying so hard, i could barely speak. thinking about it now, i felt ashamed of calling you, crying to you & opening up to you. the first time we spoke to one another was weird, i helped you use the Bunsen burner the correct way in the Chemistry experiment. i doubt you'll remember that. whatever it is, this is for you!

You treat me just like another stranger

Well, it's nice to meet you, sir

I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend

you treat me like a stranger, now that you have her in you life. i'll be gone, if that's what you want. i'll leave from ur life, leave from all those stupid memories i cherished. but wait, i guess i'll start flushing all those stuff about you & me down the drain, or maybe toilet bowl. you're ignoring me now-COMPLETELY! but, it's ok. i'm strong enough to say, i'm DONE with YOU! thanks, mate!

P/S: trust me, if you were in front of me, i'd blow up!